Untuned Rhapsody

Testing

2009-12-15T10:33:00.000+08:00

I love my iPhone!! And Im even blogging from it. LOL! :D

Not letting go

2009-11-26T15:18:00.005+08:00

Seems like I can't seem to let go of my blog. I've had intentions of clicking on the "Delete Blog" button but the blog holds too much memories, ever since I was in my early years in Secondary School.

So I'm gonna start updating again. Promise.

So what have I been up to? How I'm doing?

All is well. Alhamdulillah.

My family is fine. Though since she's been gone, I'm still adapting to the difference in the environment at home. It's already been a year and a kenduri was held on the 7th Nov. I didn't realise time flew THAT fast.

Phadale(bf) has been wonderful. Though sometimes he gets on my nerves but all is for the better. He has been supportive and encouraging me in whatever I do. My relatives are getting to know him and it makes me smile seeing that he is getting on well with my family members. My parents are so supportive of me being together with him.

Work has been alright. It almost got the better at one point and I was about to breakdown coz of the frustration with the school management. Nonetheless, I've had the most awesome-est colleagues ever. Nadia and CT have made work a whole much better place. However, CT is leaving soon, and I'm kinda sad because we're already so close to each other. Well, life is all about changes right?

Dikir is probably taking up a large part of my life right now. There are major plans for Nira. Previously, we were involve in the Piala Seni Dikir 4 competition. We didn't bring home any trophies or individual prizes but that debut appearance in an open category competition was an eye opener. We were ultra satisfied with how we did on stage and seeing our "big brothers" do a standing ovation at the end of our performance made us felt like we already won.

Seems like almost everything is on track but I've been depriving one very important person in my life.

To you my gf, I know we both are occupied with our own schedules but nonetheless, I is hoping hard for us to spend some time together. Even Phadale asked me to ask you out. I don't know what you've been up to other than work and probably the Mr. (At least I know he is taking care of you well, when I read your blog (: ) I hope to hear from you soon. I'm not very sure if you'd ever read my blog. Hopefully you will. I miss you truckloads. We've got lots to catch up on. :)

Ok this seems like a virgin "wordful" update so far after a long time. I promise I'd update it often now. I still have my tumblr coz I love the stuff I stumble open there :)

"Fumblr"

2009-11-01T23:04:00.000+08:00

I'd be over at http://fumbledtots.tumblr.com

Maybe

2009-11-01T21:59:00.003+08:00

I might just move out from here.

Whether it is permanent or not, I don't know yet. :)
Just feel like a change of environment....

Because we still have each other...

2009-09-25T23:31:00.002+08:00

What else can I possibly say? Awesome-est. :D

Syawal Menjelma

2009-09-20T01:39:00.002+08:00

Sebulan sudah kita berpuasa...
Kini Syawal sudah menjelma...
Mohon maaf dipinta...
Ikhlas dari saya...

It's a wonder how time flies so fast. I've never thought Ramadhan would end so soon. Alhamdulillah, this year, I've managed to fast for a whole month (Heee.. and no, I'm not pregnant ok).

Ramadhan has been great. Family, boyfriend, friends, colleagues. It's been fantabulous. Alhamdulillah. Insyallah, Syawal will be great too.

At the sound of the takbir, the whole house was silent. I cried by myself in the room, reliving the memories when Nenek was around. It definitely feels different. Raya preps toned down alot now that the first house on the first day of Syawal isn't at my place. Yes, the whole family feels at a lost eventhough its been 10 months we've lost Nenek.

Nonetheless, we gave our Al-Fatihah to her as a remembrance alongside the takbir raya.

Once again, to all my fellow relatives, friends, colleagues, if ever I've done any mistakes or offended you in any way, intentional or unintentional, I hope that all my sins and wrongdoings are forgiven.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri
Minal Aidil Walfaizin

Mc"I'm yours"Donald anyone?

2009-09-10T23:28:00.003+08:00

Anyone wants McDonalds for buka puasa?

Maybe I'd do a Pitbull - I know you want me(Calle Ocho) version.

1,2,3,4
Uno, dos, tres, quatro
I want McSpicy (I know you want me)
without the veggie (You know I want 'cha)
I want large fries...
and loads of chilli

The rest is history. LOL!

Ramadhan at its best...

2009-09-07T15:13:00.008+08:00

What's Ramadhan without the numerous iftar(s) with friends/family? I've had a couple the past week and all of it was awesome.

Alhamdulillah, my Ramadhan has been colourful with the family, awesome friends and a lovely bf. Heeee.. :D

Nonetheless, I'm not denying that my Hari Raya spirit is rather low compared to previous years. Maybe coz this is the first Raya without grandma? Maybe. Then again, this year's Ramadhan is so fulfilling. One lost, another is gained. I'm so thankful for what has been blessed.

@ Iftar with bf at Yio Chu Kang CC last Tuesday was good. Thank god they loved the cheesecake I made.

Nira Iftar 2009 at Casafina condominium clubhouse last Friday definitely takes the cake for the bestest iftar. I miss the Nira girls so much! It felt good seeing them after a long time. It was a great get-together. And again, they loved my cheesecake too, Alhamdulillah.

I might consider opening a cheesecake business with the other 2 makciks at work. HAHAHA! :)

Iftar at J's Wok & Grill cum Fir's 14th birthday was great too last Saturday. The food was okaayy coz some tasted abit salty. Other than that, it was worth the $20 per person. Bf was there so I had a great time.

And of course, not forgetting Fadhil for being there all the time. The random times I ask you to buka with me outside and iftar with my family on Saturday... :)

Come to think of it, I can't wait for Hari Raya. It's already the 17th of Ramadhan. Just 13 days more...

On the job

2009-08-31T15:35:00.004+08:00

My happy pills at work....

And notice the new hair? Hehehe.. back to being curly... :p

A different Ramadhan

2009-08-30T01:02:00.005+08:00

It has already been a week since the Muslims started fasting. Alhamdulillah, it has been a smooth ride for me so far.

Just that it feels that my Ramadhan feels kinda different.

There isn't nenek around anymore. I teared for awhile hearing the first azan on the first day of Ramadhan. If nenek was still around, she would be sitting beside me on the dinner table. *sobs*

Last Monday, 24th Aug, was her 71st birthday and the whole family decided to have an iftar on the Sunday just to have a small tahlil before breaking fast together. Despite having to lose an elderly, whom we all now, is the gel that holds the family together, Alhamdulillah, the family ties are still strong and we keep up with each other very often.

Enough of the sadness.

Ramadhan is the time where we can see the gazillion types of food at the dinner table almost every night for a month. On the iftar, there were tons of food and the highlight for the day was my Oreo Cheesecake!

I've gotten the hang of making an Oreo Cheesecake and its NO-BAKE! So hassle-free! So whenever I feel like eating cheesecake, I'll make it myself. Heee.. and it's sooo sedaaapp!

SEDAP KAAANN!?!?!?! I might consider starting a business.. heheheehehe

And then it was terawih together with the whole family.... :)

Alhamdulillah, I've had a good week of Ramadhan so far. Expecting it to be better in the weeks to come, Insyallah.

Selamat Menjalani Ibadah Puasa! :D

One helluva time

2009-08-20T09:25:00.011+08:00

Ok finally, I'm back with an update. There is so much I wanna tell, I don't know where to start. Ok now let’s begin.. one at a time…

NDP 09

This has got to be the peak of the whole time I was busy. The event was marvellous and the journey throughout was sweet. Everyone had a great time. Making a debut appearance in this year’s NDP, I’m proud to be part of the dikir barat team. Of course I was happy seeing myself on tv. HAHAHAHA!

Looking at the pictures, I can say that the rest is history.. :)

Piala Raja Panggung 2009

This was also a debut appearance for me as an awok in an open category competition. Being together with Wahana Deksu was truly an eye-opening experience to the world of dikir barat and beyond. It was great while it lasted. I’m flattered to be given a chance and for that I thank you, Wahana Deksu, for such an opportunity to be given to a “small fry” like me. I will be taking this experience as a learning ground for my personal upbringing as a person and as an activist in the dikir scene.

My New Job

Yes people. I am employed, for a month already. Alhamdulillah, everything has been going on smoothly. I love my workplace. For all the efforts I put in during the jobhunt, I am truly pleased with my job. Currently, I am a CCPE in a school in Punggol. I am thankful for having such great colleagues which makes me look forward to work everyday.

To a new beginning… *cheers with wine glasses* (macam ye2 mode)

And to my bf, thank you for everything, to date.. :)

I'll be right back.

2009-08-02T21:44:00.002+08:00

Blogger has been really a bitch whenever I try to post using firefox on my personal laptop at home. Funny thing is, it works fine on the PC at work. Thus, explains the mini hiatus and lack of updates.

I'll be back shortly after I've sorted everything out.

Right now I'm busy.. busy.. busy..
Busy as a bee. :D

Back-to-basics

2009-07-01T13:49:00.008+08:00

How to make a kite

What you need:
- Tracing Paper
- 2 pieces of stick
- Thread
- Rice
- Patience
- Skill

Rice is the substitute for glue in the olden days. Correct me if I'm wrong but I believe that glue wasn't easily available during the old kampung days. So kids during those times used rice to glue their kite pieces together.

Did it work?

Hell yeah it did. I saw it with my own eyes.

Sometimes, our problems do not seek expertise to help solve them. It's a matter of getting to the root of the problem, analysing the situation and start looking for solutions. The solution might be the simplest things that you might have overlook. Who would have thought rice would be able to stick like glue?

At the end of it all, you'd realise that you aren't alone. There's always someone willing to help.

Like how you let go of your kite to make it fly :)

A true legend, MJ

2009-06-29T14:06:00.004+08:00

He is one of the legendary pop idols which I believe, puts his hearts and soul to every of his songs to date. He makes everyone feel loved and appreciated. He is a humanitarian and despite setbacks in his personal life, he is still an idol to many.

RIP Michael Jackson
1958-2009

Transformers: Revenge of The Fallen

2009-06-25T23:03:00.006+08:00

As you know, I was very hyped about the Transformers sequel and of course, you guessed it. (If you hadn't realised, look at my blogpost and read my tweets from yest. :p) I watched it yesterday, when it opened in cinemas around Singapore. You had no idea what I did to make sure I get tickets and good seats. LOL! All in the name of Transformers. (Ooohh.. Optimus Prime!)

I didn't have enough money in my bank account and so I contemplated on booking tickets online. I had cash on hand and already thought of transferring some amount into my account so I would be able to book online. The fickle me decided not to, but at 10pm on Wednesday, I went on the websites of GV, Cathay, FilmGarde and every other cinema website to see whether there were good seats available. Lo and behold, I almost wanted to dash out of the house and put some money into the my account. LOL.

The best seats that were available were at FilmGarde so I had to get the tickets there and then. I relaxed for awhile, and each time I refreshed, there were seats being taken. I didn't wanna take another chance and immediately went down to the ATM. HAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAAHAH!

I can't believe I did all that just to get two bloody movie tickets. LIKE OTHER DAYS CANNOT WATCH TRANSFORMERS! bodoh. I can be ridiculous at times, without even realising it. HAHA.

Ok so my review.....

It was packed full with action, no doubt. There were blasts, bombings, shooting etc. almost in every scene so I was all eyes throughout the whole movie.

The whole movie lasted almost 2 1/2 hrs. Yes. LIKE HINDUSTAN MOVIE SEY! Micheal Bay did a good job in making the action last that long.

The storyline was unexpected. I'm not gonna give any spoilers. Wait I become like wet blanket liddat. So go watch if you wanna know. Really good storyline. :)

I was abit dissappointed though. I thought I could expect more from the new characters. Instead, only cameo appearances were made by them. Bummer. It could have been better if only they introduced them.

Nonetheless, the $7.50 and the "sanggup-pegi-ATM-malam-buta-untuk-top-up-bank-account" was worth it. I would get the DVD once its out to watch it again n again.

I give it 4 out of 5 popcorns!
Like I said, major dissappointment on the non existent introduction of characters but the action and storyline was GOOOOOODDDDDD!

NDP 2009 Happenings

2009-06-22T00:07:00.005+08:00

In less then 2 months time, our nation will be celebrating it's 44th year of independence. Me, being a true-blue Singaporean, is very proud of being involve in it. YES! My very first time! My VIRGIN performance in NDP!

I am very super-duperly happy and excited for it.

Last Saturday, 21st June 2009, was the first combined rehearsal at Marina Floating Platform. So for those of you who wanna catch the fireworks, it's now on every Saturday.

I am involve the dikir barat item for NDP this year. This is the first time dikir barat is being featured in NDP and proud to say that the item is the opening act right after the march past.

The thought of being in NDP hasn't sink in when we had our trainings and rehearsals at Kranji Camp but after stepping in to the Marina Floating Platform, hell yeah, it sank in deep.

The first rehearsal we had over at Marina Floating Platform was simply spectacular. This year's NDP is gonna be de bomb.The firworks are awesome! Being on the stage is an eye-opening experience... LITERALLY!!

See what I mean?

For those of you who's gotten tickets to this year's NDP, good for you! For those who didn't, uhm, beg, borrow, steal if you have to. LOL!

The low-quality pictures are taken using my Samsung F480. The better looking ones are taken from pple's digi-cams n most of it is where I'm being tagged in Facebook. I would love to bring my DIDI, but I don't think it wld make things easier for me. :D

Definitely more updates of NDP as time goes by. Follow me on Twitter if you want to know my updates on NDP. Oh and HOW DO I TWITPIC ON MY MOBILE?!?!?! :p

Transformers Hype

2009-06-17T22:15:00.012+08:00

I am for one very hyped about the upcoming Transformers sequel, Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen.

The first Transformers was awesome. The cinematography of it all was almost excellent. The special effects, the sounds, the explosions.. everything. Even the robots were believable.

I can't wait to see what's in store for the second sequel. If you haven't know yet, it'll be released in the cinemas on June 24th and I for sure is definitely watching it. No doubt about it.

Other than being a great movie, of course everyone is looking forward to seeing the ever-so-hot Megan Fox in action. With beauty like that, she is making everyone look ugly. LOL. I mean how gorgeous can one person be?

Too gorgeous, til it came to a point where it became unbelievably naturally gorgeous. Is Megan Fox really a man?

News spread about her claiming that she was a man and underwent surgery to be how she is now.

When I heard about it, I went like... "NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~"

Something like that. So I had my "semangat-dua-saat" moment and went to google it. And came across this article:

LOS ANGELES, CA – The internet has been abuzz since this Sunday’s Golden Globes ceremony, where Megan Fox jokingly remarked that she looked like a man.

When interviewed on the red carpet, she said “I look like Alan Alda in drag. I’m a tranny. I’m a man.”

At the time, reporters passed it off as a jovial attempt to cover for her nerves.

However, today she has cleared the air and officially reported: she’s really a man.

Megan Fox was born Mitchell Reed Fox in Rockwood, Tennessee. From an early age, Mitchell showed an interest in both performing and women’s clothing. When having a preacher lay hands on him did not ‘cure’ him of these interests, his parents simply put him on the pageant circuit.

Source: http://weeklyworldnews.com/celebs/4783/megan-fox-is-a-man/

Seems like it's rather worth trusting this article. Little did I know there was another article somehow with regards to Megan Fox "really" being a man.

'Man' and 'Megan Fox' aren't normally two words you would put together.

But in an interview at The Golden Globes on Sunday, the Transformer star insisted she has real insecurities - branding herself 'a man'.

Golden Globes 2009 | Best Dressed

Megan, 22, who wore a stunning, tight fitting golden gown to the event also admitted being extremely 'nervous' about her appearance.

She said: "I am pretty sure I am a doppelganger for Alan Alda. I'm a transvestite. I'm a man. I'm so painfully insecure. I'm on the verge of vomiting now. I am so horrified that I am here, and embarrassed. I'm scared."

Source: http://www.mtv.co.uk/artists/megan-fox/news/90994-megan-fox-a-man

Believing that MTV is a more reliable source of entertainment news for me, I chose to believe the latter.

DOES THAT LOOK ANYTHING LIKE A "MAN" TO YOU?!!?!?!?!

I am heaving a big sigh of relief after knowing that this bombshell is a natural born girl. By the way, how the hell can surgery really change a man's voice to "girly-girl"? Oh and I would think Shia LeBouf would barfed at having the thought of kissing a "she-male".

I have no idea why the hell I am so relieved for. HAHA!

Nonetheless, TRANSFORMERS, ROLL OUT!
*klinks metal spoons*

A story

2009-06-13T00:26:00.003+08:00

It's a typical story between a boy and a girl. They met through friends and didn't expect for anything to happen between them. All that happen was just with the mere intention of forming a friendship bond.

Simple right?

However, that wasn't exactly what happened.

Eventually, the boy and the girl developed feelings for each other. They got together into a relationship, and everything was smooth sailing. Not exactly fairy-tale like, but enough to make both of them happy.

A few months into the relationship, things got abit out of hand. The boy had someone else and left the girl just like that. The girl was clueless, lost and of course, heartbroken. It affected her to a certain extent but she had to move on. She knew crying bucketloads wouldn't help anything.

So she moved on. It was hard, but she got over it.

Somehow a few months later, the boy came back into her life. To think that the girl hoped for their relationship to blossom again, it had to get worse.

"I am going to be a father"

She had to hold back her tears and swallow as much of the pride and ego that she had to be the nice person. When she thought that the sudden appearance of the boy would bring a glimmer of hope, she got it all wrong. The girl probably thought that hating the boy wouldn't make anything better and she couldn't help seeing the friendship that they initially had go to waste.

So she put up a brave front and decided to keep it to a friendship level, to a point where she faced up to reality and met the wife and the son.

Seeing the true reality in front of her eyes, the girl decided that at that point, it was really time to stop hoping and look beyond the horizon. She picked up the pieces slowly, but surely she was moving on, forgetting the boy.

Again, things just had to happen.

A few months later, the boy came back again but now, with problems between him and his wife. The girl, being naive, she decided to help sort things out but matters got worse with the boy's wife begging the girl to get back together with the boy. Drama, much.

Seeing the drama happening, the girl just dissappeared.

There were major changes. The boy is now married with two kids and the girl, isn't married, but rather happy with the special person that she is with now.

It had been 2 years.

Who would have thought that both of them would meet again.

After 2 years, the boy came back. However, this time, the boy has hopes of being together with the girl again.

"I'm sorry but right now, I am in a relationship and I am happy with the person I'm with now. As much as I feel like going back to you, you know it's not possible. I wouldn't wanna trade my boyfriend for anyone else. Sorry."

The boy was having a rough time in his marriage. He wanted to end it sooner or later. However, the girl was very much in love with her boyfriend eventhough she feels unappreciated in her present relationship.

But the girl decided to meet the boy. As soon as they met, she felt a sense of happiness. The boy beamed with joy.

Knowing that their love was impossible.....the boy landed a kiss on the girl's forehead.

"Do you know what that kiss is for?"
"No. You tell me."
"Whenever someone else kisses you on your forehead, you will be reminded of me."

Any relation to anyone living or dead is unintentional. All characters in this story are fictional.

Because we've grown up

2009-06-02T23:03:00.004+08:00

Last Saturday, one of my babes, in TP, my classmate, got engaged.

YES ENGAGED!

Congrats Nurul Fathin Aida on your engagement to your man. Hope that the love blossoms and I'll promise I'll come to your wedding okay! Wow, just graduated and now engaged already.

Sorry I couldn't come to your engagement because of my NDP training. I'll make it up to you okay! :D

I AM SO HAPPY FOR YOU!!

P.S. I OSO WANT!!!!! :p *hints hints*

Shocking reactions

2009-06-02T21:36:00.006+08:00

You know how funny it gets when you try to make people scream ecause they're shocked and suprised.

This is one classic prank. I laughed so much at 3am in the morning watching this.

HAAHAHAAAHHAHaHAAAHAHAHAHHAHAAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHHHHAAAHAHH!!!!

On another note,

I AM SO GONNA GET THIS!

x infinity

2009-06-02T21:18:00.003+08:00

I love my family.
I love my family.
I love my family.
I love my family.

The swine is here

2009-05-27T11:59:00.003+08:00

Even after taking precautionary measures which are rather extreme, such things just had to come after the alert was brought down to yellow.

Yup.

The swine is here.
Read about it:
http://www.straitstimes.com/Breaking+News/Singapore/Story/STIStory_382278.html

Thank god I am halal. :p

A rose for a lady

2009-05-26T23:39:00.002+08:00

Can I have this on my wall?
Please ah please.

Growing up

2009-05-25T17:42:00.002+08:00

Yesterday, after waking up from an afternoon nap which I had with my mom in her room, she decided to ask a random question

Mama: Kak, next year you're turning 20 eh?
Me: Yes. Why?
Mama: Takdelah. Anak-anak mama makin lama makin besar, abe dah nak tinggalkan mama.
(It's nothing. Just that my children are growing up so fast, and soon enough, you wouldn't be staying with me anymore)
Me: Aper je mama ni. I'll be here with you forever!!
(Nonsense! I'll be here with you forever!!)

Awww......
It's very sad to hear my mom saying such things. Don't worry mother. I'll always and forever will be with you. :) I know I'm growing up and I also feel that time is moving too fast, but that doesn't change anything. I am forever your daughter.
LOVE U! :D

The next phase

2009-05-22T02:40:00.003+08:00

Grey's Anatomy, Season 5, Episode 22, What a Difference a Day Makes:

The graduation speech:
Today's the day my life begins. Today I become a citizen of the world. Today I become a grown up. Today I become accountable to someone other than myself and my parents. Accountable for more than my grades. Today, I become accountable to the world. To the future. To all the possibilities that life has to offer. Starting today, my job is to show up, wide eyed and willing and ready. For what, I don't know. For anything. For everything. To take on life. To take on love. To take on the responsibility and possibility. Today, my friends, our lives begin. And I, for one, can't wait.

Taking a look back at how far I've come, I've never realised it took me 19 years to be where I am now and the funny thing is, I hadn't realised it has been 19 years.

The things people do just for education, and with no realisation of it at all.

Who would have thought I'd be the rightful owner of the diploma that I hold now. Despite the setbacks that I had to go through throughout the 3 years, it's all over now.

Alhamdulillah...

I started off being a nerd, with a haircut that looked like it was hanging from my roots like the bunga manggar that you see at malay weddings and WAY ABOVE my shoulder, the very "fashionable" spectacles with lens frames that have the outline of a semicircle and without having a mickey mouse on it, it won't do justice. Not forgetting the very popular Osh Kosh B'gosh that is a must-have in every kids wardrobe and of course, I was known amongst my family members to be the kid who is always wearing the hat, ANYWHERE I GO. The best thing is I didn't have to worry about not having enough money for anything. I'd constantly have pocket money.

And now, I've grown. Oh yes, I've grown alot. :D

At least I've come to my senses to dress up as a sane human being.
But now, I have to deal with my own bills..
My own shopping..
My own necessities..
My own name..

No need for anymore consent forms.

I guess this is where my life really starts.
Hello world! Are you ready for me?

Personality test

2009-05-21T14:14:00.002+08:00

I went over to Amir's blog and he did a personality test. I thought it would be interesting to try it out and so I did. The results, were amazingly SPOT ON!

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
BINGO!

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
Gosh, who created this personality test? I'm having goosebumps.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
Spot on again!

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
This is FREAKISHLY TRUE!

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Heartless

2009-05-21T13:10:00.003+08:00

I don't understand how someone can be so heartless. 'Nuff said, I'll stop trying for now. Or maybe forever.

Thanks for actually forgetting about my graduation a day before, after I told you multiple times about it and when I was hoping you would come surprise me.

Anyways, congrats to Kris for winning American Idol. SUCK THAT ADAM LOVERS!! *inserts evil laughter here*

Graduation 2009

2009-05-18T22:28:00.002+08:00

This is it, Graduation.

Tomorrow, in about 11 hrs from now, at 9.30am, clad in the robe, I'd be going up on stage to receive my Diploma and thus marks the end of my tertiary education, officially.

Graduation never fails to bring me to tears. :'(

American Idol: The Final Showdown

2009-05-18T00:21:00.009+08:00

American Idol is at the peak now since the 2 finalists has been announced on Thursday. I must say this year's season is full of talented contestants. It's something different every week and there is loads of surprises to look forward to.

When it came down to the final 3, I believe the fans and supporters had a hard time deciding on who to vote. It was down to Danny Gokey, Adam Lambert and Kris Allen. I believe this has got to be the 3 most hardest decisions to make.

Danny Gokey, who is btw my favourite, has got to be the most down-to-earth contestant I've ever seen. I have to say his performance style is somewhat, normal but his voice is mesmerising. I loved his performance when he sang "September". His voice was damn sexy! It has a husky touch to it. I just love it. And for his final performance, I almost came down to tears with his rendition of "You are so beautiful". IT WAS SO SINCERE!!! I totally felt that he was actually singing from the heart. Haiz, Danny Gokey darling, it's okay. You may not win Idol but you're a winner to my heart. (HAHAHAAHAHAHAHAH!!)

Adam Lambert is by far one of the most unexpected contestants. He comes out different each time. Though, on my personal opinion, I thought his style of singing gets annoying over time. Well, maybe he is great as a performer but as a recording artiste, I don't think he would go far. Well that's my personal opinion. I must say, his rendition of "One" was good. I had chills down my spine. Wooh!

Last but not least, Kris Allen, the cute bugger. Too bad he is married. I must say, he is very creative with his song renditions. I feel like he is very "Jason Mraz"-y, y'know, very much into acoustics the the sorts. I was torn between him and Danny but I still faved Danny because he has a unique voice, whereas Kris Allen is something which you would expect from someone who CAN sing. However, after listening to "Heartless", it blew me away. Totally. My jaw literally dropped when I heard him sing to that song. Nothing like Kanye West's version. So since Danny darling is out, my vote for Idol champion would be him, HANDS DOWN!

Now it's down to the finals! :D

Itching for something new

2009-05-14T22:39:00.004+08:00

Yes yes. I've been rather complacent with my blog. My updates aren't as often as before. Just that sometimes when I want to update, when I actually come down to typing out the post, my mind goes blank. Alasan, much? Heh.

So what do I really do since I'm currently unemployed and sedap menghabiskan beras di rumah?

Facebook-ing, working out and job hunting of course.

(As I am typing this post, I'm busy switching tabs in my firefox window between facebook, other people's blogs and random websites for inspirations for a design I'm planning to do)

Ok I'm procrastinating but it gets so distracting sometimes. Especially around this hour when almost everyone on your MSN and Facebook list is online. With the constant quizzes and witty comments that are exchanged in Facebook, what's there not to be distracted about?!

About the working out bit, I'm not joking. To date, I've lost 5 kilos and hell yeah I'm proud of it. I feel so much healthier actually. It feels different. What did I do to shed the weight? Ok, I'm cheating rather because I'm undergoing slimming treatment at London Weight Management but not all the work is done by them. I'm on a strict diet, with carbs(rice) twice a week. I struggled like hell in the beginning. It was TORTURE! But I got through with it and now my body, mind and soul are nicely adjusted to the diet. Of course, diet alone won't help. I engage myself in sports like tennis and badminton. I can't do jogging coz it bores the hell out of me. LOL. Oh and not forgetting to stock up on the fluids in the body. VERY IMPORTANT!

I haven't had any luck with my job search. I've so far applied with the SPF and CAAS and so far, there are no responses. I've applied with MOE for relief teaching also, but still no response yet. I'm waiting for my graduation next Tuesday for my official diploma and transcript and I would be applying with ICA.

Seems like my plans are on track.

Once I get a job, I'd be a happy goober.

Anyway, since I'm so hooked onto Facebook quizzes, there was this quiz I took titled "Hey Minah, what kind of Mat should you be dating?". Apparently, this isn't the only quiz that the creater came up with. She left her livejournal web on this quiz result and after I read it, I instantly loved her entries.

Visit her here.

I'll keep that for a later post.

As of now, I am totally in love with this...

I WANT I WANT!!!!!!!!

To the superwoman in my life...

2009-05-12T01:04:00.004+08:00

Dearest Mother,

On the special occasion of Mother's Day, I'd like to make it extra special to express my love for you.

Everyone might say that there's no need to wait for Mother's Day to express your gratitude and appreciation towards your mother. You should actually show it every single day.

However, I don't always remember to say "I love you" everyday to you. So Mother's Day is a day for me to remind myself how thankful I should be to have someone like you.

You are the superwoman in my life.
I can never understand how you can have the strength to cook, clean, shop, work and still not complain.
I was never deprived of your attention and time.
I was cared for and well attended to for the whole of my 19 years.

Thank you for being a superwoman in the family.
Thank you for your understanding to all my problems and worries.
Thank you for the countless advices that you've given me whenever I was down.
Thank you for cooking the meals everyday for the family.
Thank you for shopping and splurging on me.
Thank you for the time that you've taken to spend with me.
Thank you for caring and nurturing me for the past 19 years and still doing it.

Thank you for being my mother.
Thank you for being you.

I LOVE YOU!

Short KL Trip

2009-05-11T23:12:00.005+08:00

I was over at KL during the weekends for a mother's day celebration. The trip was sponsored by my grandma. (heh.)

It was a free and easy trip. Only visited Masjid India for some shopping spree. It has been donkey years since I last visited KL. Not much difference though but I was just as excited about shopping there. LOL.

The night was filled with "glitz & glamour" with appearances by Rozita Che Wan, Nora Danish, Ekin (Mawi's wife) and the Malaysian Astronaut, Dr Sheikh Muszaphar.

This is Ekin. She has a waist the size of the height of a McChicken, literally. Basically its how you hold a normal burger. THATS HOW SMALL HER WAIST IS.

This is Rozita Che Wan. Frankly, I have no idea who she is. HAHA! But she is really vogue-licious for a mom. MILF! lol.

This is Dr Sheikh Muszaphar. The first Malaysian astronaut to the moon. HE IS REALLY CHARMING! When he came into the ballroom, I was literally in awe. The best part is, HE ISN'T MARRIED! heeeeeeeee.... :p

I didn't manage to snap a picture with the gorgeous Nora Danish. That is another pretty mom. I can't even believe she has a child.

That about wraps up my KL trip. It was a very short and simple trip just to get away from Singapore after a looonngg time.

All the pictures are up on my Facebook.

The Wedding

2009-05-03T00:34:00.013+08:00

On 24th April 2009, Abg Zul and Kak Mardiana was happily solemnised. Everything went smoothly, with the exception of the weather being a total biatch. Sumpah it was very hot and the only thing that was in my mind is to be dipped in cold cold water.

The solemnisation took place at Teck Whye Lane. The bride and groom was clad in lovely white and the second outfit was gold.

The bride's outfit was so gorgeous and retro-ish. I LIKE!

On the 25th, it was preparations for the sanding day which was the next day. There was a mini performance planned for the bride and groom. A dance performance was put up by the little kids so it was practice time for them that day. It was my first time looking at the decor over at Hougang Ave 8. Very chantek!

On the 26th was the grand sanding. The bride and groom's first outfit was yellow gold. Very classic Malay songket. The usual stuff you see at Malay weddings... the people, the food very nice (Putri Catering), the decor, the kompang.

Not forgetting the VERY CUTE NAK MAMPOS flowergirls and the 2 very handsome and charming young "gentlemen"...

Ok back to the wedding...

At Teck Whye Lane, Blk 25... Kak Mardiana's side...

Back at Hougang...

Congrats to Abg Zul & Kak Mardiana on the new gelaran of Husband & Wife.
May your love last til eternity and Insyallah, the whole family would see Mini "Zul(s) & Mardiana(s)" in the near future. :)

Continuing my stories

2009-04-30T23:24:00.005+08:00

This is the continuation of updates from the previous post of what's been happening lately. I haven't been a disciplined blogger eversince. I just don't feel like blogging sometimes. Haha. But of course, I'll never stop blogging.

Ok back to where I was.

Nira had a CCA Recruitment Drive performance on Wednesday last week. I helped out since I've got not work to do and at least my time is filled with Nira rather then nothing.

I won't bother rambling so it will just be pictures.

That is Nira. Next would be Abg Zul's and Kak Mardiana's wedding. There's hundreds of pictures for that, so I'll keep that for the next update.

Of a "Battery Low!" Experience

2009-04-29T11:28:00.004+08:00

I was doing my usual routine of playing and surfing in Facebook when I came across a fan page of "I Hate "Battery Low!"".

It got me interested and as I was reading the experiences of the fellow fans of this page, I remembered a typical experience I had with "Battery Low!"

It was a Saturday morning. I had an early start to the day because my schedule was packed with appointments (dental, friends, family etc.).
I have started a habit of not charging my phone despite it being left with only one bar to survive because I've had my share of batteries going haywire despite having it charged for HOURS. I'm very sure all of you had the same experience.

Well anyway, so yeah, I didn't charge it. Even if I wanted to, I had no time for it to be charged, at least long enough to allow the battery to be filled with two bars. (The total number of bars on my F480 is 3 btw)

So I went out with my mom and my sister to Orchard. I was praying so very hard, (you had no idea!) that my battery would at least last til the time I would meet up with my mom again after my appointments.

I guess God was having his tea time or something while I was giving prayers so my prayers weren't granted.

In the train, on the way to Orchard, my handphone died. Died as in totally dead and I can't even switch it on again to glance at the time.

OH THE HORROR!!!! YOU HAD NO IDEA!!!

At least I wasn't alone. Mum and sis was there so it was alright. But it only felt worst when mum decided to leave me when I head for my appointment at Mount E hospital. HOW THE HELL AM I SUPPOSE TO CONTACT HER W/O A PHONE?!!?! Being in the heart of town didn't help either. Thank god there was a public phone at Mount E's lobby. But it is so tak glamour to be calling someone from a public phone. Then again, the situation doesn't leave me with any choice.

So I decided to head to my next appointment over at Wheelock Place. It was at 11pm.

And guess what...

I DID NOT WEAR A WATCH!!!

You had noooooo idea how much I wanted to scream.

I felt like shit for the entire day.

So please people, learn from my experience. Just charge the bloody phone whenever you want to. HAHA!

So many stories

2009-04-26T22:05:00.006+08:00

The weather has been rather crazy the past few days. It's so freaking hot, I sweat buckets everyday! A way to lose water in the body without having to do much of a workout. Then again, I hate feeling all sticky. Haha!

I remembered last Wednesday night, the wind was bonkers! It was so strong, the store door kept making noises and I felt as though the whole building was about to tumble.

...
Ok maybe not.

But I'm sure everyone experienced the crazy winds on Wed night. Scary man.

Enough about the weather....
Now back to my stories...

Kak Diana's Engagement

It was a purple affair and Kak Diana was definitely gorgeous in purple. Very chantek! I like.

Ok, I'd do more updates soon because blogger suddenly decided to retaliate and stop me from uploading anymore pictures. -.-

Aku penat

2009-04-22T00:46:00.001+08:00

Aku penat.
Penat tahap maksima.

Aku penat memahami keadaan orang lain.
Aku penat memahami tanggungjawab orang lain.
Aku penat menjaga perasaan orang lain.

Walhal, diri aku tidak difahami oleh orang-orang.
Adakah patut aku mendapat layanan seperti ini selepas aku mengambil berat tentang kesibukkan orang?
Macam maner eh?

Kalau ditegur tentang sikapnya, aku dianggap seperti orang yang tidak "understanding".
Kalau berdiam diri, naik sedap pulak.

Sampai biler aku harus memahami dan bilakah masanya aku akan difahami?

Chilling, BBQ Session

2009-04-19T22:56:00.003+08:00

It was a good chilling cum BBQ session with the uncles, aunts and cousins over at Changi. It wasn't the usual, cool, breezy night by the beach. It was rather humid. What's with the weather going bonkers, thank god it didn't rain last night.

It was a pre-wedding celebration for the weds-to-be, Abg Zul and Kak Mardiana. They're gonna get hitched this coming so friday so this is the last celebration for them as singles.

It was a night of FHM Poker Cards, Taboo and just good ol' laughs over the usual silly antics.

Sungguh baik sekali! :)

I have no idea why I suddenly feel excited for their wedding. :p
Oh..

AND I'M HOOKED ONTO TWITTER-ING!!! :) :)

Betraying your own flesh and blood

2009-04-17T12:04:00.002+08:00

I was tuning in to Ria 89.7 and it was Fiza O's session "Girlfriends" where listeners can send in their top secret experiences on air.

Just a few minutes ago, I was listening to a story shared by a girl who was betrayed by her own flesh and blood.

You had no idea how much fume I was having when I heard her story.

Imagine this.

You're working as a stewardess, you're in and out of the country so very often. You have a fiance whom you trust so very much.

One day, you found out, your own sister was pregnant, with your fiance's kid.

OMFG!!

FOR THE LOVE OF GOD... YOUR OWN SISTER!!! YOUR FIANCE!!

*screams*

It's something which you might never thought it would happen. But this for sure is real. I can tell by the voice of Marsha, whom shared her story, she was devastated. I don't know how long ago this happened, but she was definitely holding back her tears when she was re-telling her story. Her younger sister, only a year apart, whom she treated as a best friend, whom shared everything with her, betrayed her right under her nose. Sharing everything doesn't include boyfriends, fiances and husbands.

*pulls hair out*

Ok. I might be abit exaggerating but CMON MAN! WHO IN THE RIGHT MIND WOULD HAVE THE HEART TO DO SUCH A THING!?!!?!?!

And for the record, her sister even had the cheek to ask her to lay her hands off her ex-fiance because he is now her's(the sister).

!@#$%^?&*@*#!%)*!(@$!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You have no idea how I felt just hearing her story. No points given for guessing what Marsha felt having to go through the whole experience.

I'd probably shoot my sister dead if that were to happen to me.

Some people just have the heart to do such a thing. To your own flesh and blood.

The extent that humans go through to get what they want... unimaginable.

Note to self

2009-04-15T02:21:00.003+08:00

And now I've come to contemplate...

No wait.

I don't really know what I'm doing. I'm just thinking. Just some plain, rather deep, thinking.

Why?
How?
Should I?
Should I not?
What if?

I know I'm not gonna give up but then again I tell myself, do I ALWAYS have to keep trying? Would it be worth the effort? Will the time to stop trying ever come?

On the other hand, should I succumb to it?

How I wish...
I never stop wishing now, do I?

I should stop my wishful thinking.

Ok what the hell am I saying? My thoughts are messed up. Like how I am right now.

I'm jobless.
I have no direction.
I have no idea what I should do.
I don't know if I should do what I feel like doing.
I feel the same like how I felt 2-3 years ago... rather unaccomplished.

Things are different now. I know.
But it doesn't feel that way.

It did feel different a few months ago. I thought it would last forever.
It didn't. It stopped, a few weeks ago, apparently.

Would things change? I want change. Or rather, change from how it is now to how it was before. Or maybe change for something better.

I'd trade all others away for any change. Really.
No, I'm not desperate. Or maybe, I am, just that I don't want to sound like I am.
But, I guess there was something that made me realised, there will be NO change and I keep on forgetting that. It kills me.

And again and again, it kills me.
I keep forgetting.

I need to tie a knot on my finger to keep reminding myself that there will be NO change. That's just how it is. I just have to do it "the old fashion way", I guess.

This could just be one of those days...

Or maybe, this could be a realisation, after I felt my eyes well up for abit...

Random tears...

2009-04-14T23:57:00.003+08:00

Or maybe, just maybe, it's a realisation?

Piala KGMS - Saringan

2009-04-07T23:04:00.003+08:00

I had a blastful weekend with Nira. It was a virgin experience for Nira to be doing work for Piala KGMS, a dikir competition organised by Kesatuan Guru-guru Melayu Singapura (KGMS).

For all dikir barat enthusiasts, or anyone for that matter who wishes to watch this competition, please visit http://pialakgms.blogspot.com

Sunday, 5th April 2009, was the preliminary rounds. A total of 15 groups competed and 12 groups made it to the semi finals. To the groups who made it through the first round, congrats. For those who didn't, never give up because there is always a next time. They say, winning and losing is all part of the competition.

Back to where I was, yes I had total fun that day. With my favourite girls, we were all clad in blue, despite having to wake up early in the morning, on a Sunday with groggy faces. We were quite hyped about the event.

At the end of it all, the whole event went smoothly. Alhamdulillah.

Next up, Piala KGMS - Separuh Akhir. :)

To you,
We'll make this work ok :)

To my Babe

2009-04-01T22:52:00.005+08:00

To my dearest Babe,

I know this has probably got to be the hardest, most painful, lowest point of your life that you've faced so far. I'm sorry I can't be there for you as much as I want to because of work. Nonetheless you should know that I'm always here if you need someone to talk to. I'll try my best to cheer you up okay?

2 years isn't easy to come about. Despite all that you've done for him, I know you feel that this isn't what you deserved. This doesn't make up to what that was experienced during the 2 years. Nonetheless, this is only one phase in your life. You've only lived 19 years. You've still got a long time ahead of you.

Look at it on the bright side, he doesn't know what he's losing.

However, don't let this bring your whole self down. Like I said, this is only ONE phase in your life. There is bound for more and even tougher hardships throughout this maturing period. I know it's easier for me to say because I'm not in your shoes.

I'm just encouraging you to keep your chin up. This is not the end. Believe that this "mishap" happened because you're just fated for something better. So keep your spirits up, cry about it if you have to (but this should be the last), pick up the pieces together, move on and gradually let go.

Time waits for noone, so make use of the time to find something to do and make yourself happy and contented. Don't waste anymore time thinking about it when the other party doesn't give two hoots about you.

You've got a wonderful family.
You've got an awesome lot of friends.
You've got me.

So what have you lose?

I know you too well that this won't be easy for you.

Remember what I said to you...

Help yourself before others can eventually help you.
Once again, you know I love you.

With love,
Naq

Dliia Harry, the latest addition

2009-04-01T22:34:00.002+08:00

Presenting the newest member of Family46...

Dliia Harry
(pronounced as Di-lia)
Weighing at 3.2kg, she was borned yesterday, 31st March at about 6+pm.

I SUKER!!!!!
The red spot on her head was caused by the suction which was used to pull her out of her mummy's tummy.
Poor lil cutie :(

Nonetheless, welcome to the family!
(Yes, I'm OBSESSED with kids. Teehee..)

The night that we both needed

2009-03-29T23:57:00.005+08:00

Despite being troubled for the whole day, staring into blank spaces, walking around with an empty soul, things got abit better that night.

Thanks to my wonderful babe, Fizah.

We both had our own setbacks but we were there for each other. Yesterday night was what we both really needed.

Me and Fizah caught Towkay Wayang (thanks to you who bought the tickets which in the end, you couldn't make it that night) at Victoria Theatre yesternight.

It was a first experience for me having to watch a theatre performance. I loved it and I would want to watch more of such productions.

Well, the cast was good. I especially love the music. Composed by the great Zubir Abdullah, it was wonderful. The storyline was very touching and I did notice a few among the audience were sniffing, sobbing away, including Fizah. I wanted to tear too but I had good control of my tears. (I've had enough of the shedding of tears saga)

Would there be a soundtrack for this musical? Coz I would love to get my hands on it. I LOVE THE MUSIC! Haha. And the setting, the costumes, so surreal. Very nice.

Photography wasn't allowed during the whole showcase of the musical so it's just pictures after the production.

And to you babe, thanks a million.
You know I love you :)

And I support Earth Hour!

The theatre was dark whaaaatt!!!

Cinta ini membunuhku

2009-03-29T15:30:00.003+08:00

Kau membuat ku berantakan
Kau membuat ku tak karuan
Kau membuat ku tak berdaya
Kau menolakku acuhkan diriku

Bagaimana caranya untuk
Meruntuhkan kerasnya hatimu
Ku sadari ku tak sempurna
Ku tak seperti yang kau inginkan

[Reff]
Kau hancurkan aku dengan sikapmu
Tak sadarkah kau telah menyakitiku
Lelah hati ini meyakinkanmu
Cinta ini membunuhku

Bagaimana caranya untuk
Meruntuhkan kerasnya hatimu
Ku sadari ku tak sempurna
Ku tak seperti yang kau inginkan

Back to Reff

Wooo…Uuhh…Haaa...

Lelah hati ini meyakinkanmu
Cinta ini membunuhku

Yes, it kills. :(
But I'm not giving up.

The point

2009-03-27T23:54:00.000+08:00

I have reached the point.

I'm breaking down. :'(

Sunshine after the rain?

2009-03-22T23:42:00.003+08:00

Could it be that I'm asking too much?

I don't know.

Could it be that I was never someone to you in the first place?

Hmm.. you tell me.

Could it be that you're already tired of me?

Maybe. I don't know.

Could it be that I was never taken seriously from the start?

I hope not.

So many questions yet non answered.

All I hope right now is for the rainbow (and sunshine) to come sooner after the rain.
*weeps*

Since you've been gone...

2009-03-19T23:04:00.002+08:00

Since you've been gone, things aren't going the way it is suppose to be.

How I wish you're back here, but that is obviously impossible.
Please let this stop. It's just getting out of hand.
I don't want everything to be a wreck.
But I don't have the power nor authority to do anything at the moment.

All I can do is pray. Pray REAL hard.

If only you hadn't leave so soon.. :(
If only...

Something random

2009-03-18T23:14:00.002+08:00

Someone is being a lil extra lovey dovey today. :D :D :D

But I love it.
And of course I love you. :)

Of Deeper Conversations

2009-03-16T15:39:00.007+08:00

The Mosaic Music Festival is here again! The festival will be going on for the rest of the week til the 22nd of March. So Esplanade will be hyped up with music from across the globe with multiple performances at the outdoor theatre and concerts by artists like N.E.R.D and Brian McKnight will be held at the esplanade theatres.

I didn't miss the chance of meeting YUNA for her debut appearance in Singapore. The song playing on my blog is one of my favourite from her. She has this soothing voice which makes her songs very pleasing to the ear. All this while, I've been listening to her music on her myspace page, imeem and youtube.

If you want to visit her myspace page to listen to a few of her other tracks, please click here.

Yesternight, I got to meet her live. OMG!

She sounds good live, exactly the same on her recordings. I LOVE HER!

The crowd was good. The set she did yesternight was awesome! Deep down, she inspires me to start writing my own songs. Really.

And to Hydil Pork,
WE'RE YUNA-DDICTED!

Secluded

2009-03-16T00:26:00.003+08:00

Sometimes I wonder, am I trying too hard? Am I asking for too much?

Why is it so hard to find someone who can please me? Whereas I go around pleasing people all the time. And the thing is, I don't ever complain.
Whenever I ask something from someone, it feels like I'm asking them to sacrifice the rest of their lives for me.

Why is it so very hard?

Why isn't anyone willing to do anything for me? Am I not worth the help? Am I not worth the time?

Oh god, please give me the strength.

But sometimes, the strength that I have can only last me for just so much.

I just need some alone time and pour out to my heart's content :(

This is goodbye...

2009-03-12T00:48:00.003+08:00

We've had loads of memories. Good or bad, they're still treasured. It wasn't an easy journey. I clearly wanted to give up, one moment in time. Thank god I didn't.

For now, this is goodbye.

Thanks to you, I found my new love.
Thanks to you, I've met the most wonderful people ever.
Thanks to you, I have widen my horizons and soared to greater heights.
Thanks to you, I became a stronger person inside out.
Thanks to you, I have come to believe that the possibilities are endless.

Thank you Temasek Polytechnic.
Thank you for the 3 years. :)

GRADUATION LA SEYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*does can-can dance*

Naked

2009-03-11T02:10:00.001+08:00

Yes. The blog looks naked.

It's still undergoing construction so it will look pretty soon. :)

Sabar ok kids :p

The long wait...

2009-03-08T23:01:00.001+08:00

...is finally over :)

Finally home.

HELLLOOOOOOOOO SUN SAND AND SEA!

Praying hard for no rain tomorrow. Please pretty please... :)

Piala Buluh Perindu 2009

2009-03-02T23:09:00.004+08:00

Piala Buluh Perindu 2009
1st March 09
Bishan CC

A total of 22 teams competed in the 1st dikir competition in 2009.

It was a tiring2 day, but in the end, the results were above satisfaction. WAY above. :)

Congrats to fellow @ndiks for their achievements. I'm so damn happy ah! (Ceh. Like I'm the one who performed. I'm just a fellow supporter. Heh.)

Results:

1st: Neng Nyno
2nd: Andika Kencana
3rd: Andika

Kumpulan Wanita Terbaik: Wahana Deksu
Kumpulan Harapan: T.E.L.P.A

Juara Terbaik: Dendang Mutiara
Juara Harapan: Andika Kencana

Tukang Karut Terbaik: S.R.W
Tukang Karut Harapan: Andika Kencana

Paluan Terbaik: Neng Nyno
Paluan Harapan: Andika Kencana

Senikata Terbaik: Andika
Senikata Harapan: Neng Nyno

Lagu Asli Terbaik: Keris
Awak-awak Terbaik: Neng Nyno
Kesenian Terbaik: Keris

Andika

Andika Kencana

To you,

You know I'm proud of you. All hard work paid off. :)
But right now, I miss you terribly. Please let time fly as fast as possible. I want the week to zoom past. :(

Desperate

2009-02-28T00:28:00.002+08:00

The title speaks for itself.

Yes. I'm desperate. VERY desperate to be exact. Why you ask?

I'm ending my internship with OCBC Bank next week and I am in desperate need to find a job after that. I probably want some holidays of course but I don't think too long a holiday would do me any good. I'm bound to be lazy to get any job then. So with the undying will power to never give up, I'm still searching for a job.

Figures, I have no clue to what kind of job I'd prefer to do in the long run.

I'm looking into event managements or childcare assistant teachers. Nonetheless, those are my choices for part time jobs.

I hate retail lines because it's tiring and they offer meagre pays.
I hate F&B lines because I'd only bother to clean up after myself and not others. I have a low tolerance for dirty cutleries and dishes and wasted food. Yes. I do.

I don't mind deskbound jobs. Well, it's kind boring, come to think of it, and having to experience it myself at this point in time. The job scope can get really stressful too but during tough times like this, I guess that's like the most stable job ever. I can't tolerate having to sit on an office chair, facing the computer almost for 8 hours a day, looking at loads of information which basically means almost nothing to me. However, it's not tiring, all you do is sit down and not run around, you get to dress up everyday, the pay is promising (depending on the job you do) and it can get exciting when they are corporate events.

Ok now tell me, am I being fussy? lol.

Nonetheless, if anyone has any job recommendations, PLEASE TELL ME!
Thank you very nice.

Say what?

2009-02-23T23:28:00.001+08:00

I feel deprived.

He's Just Not That Into You

2009-02-20T22:20:00.004+08:00

Are you the exception?
Or are you the rule?

Based on the wildly popular bestseller from "Sex and the City" scribes Greg Behrendt and Liz Tuccillo, He's Just Not That Into You tells the stories of a group of interconnected, Baltimore-based twenty- and thirtysomethings as they navigate their various relationships from the shallow end of the dating pool through the deep, murky waters of married life, trying to read the signs of the opposite sex... and hoping to be the exceptions to the "no-exceptions" rule.

Gigi (Ginnifer Goodwin) just wants a man who says he'll call - and does - while Alex (Justin Long) advises her to stop sitting by the phone. Beth (Jennifer Anniston) wonders if she should call it off after years of committed singlehood with her boyfriend, Neil (Ben Affleck), but he doesn't think there's a single thing wrong with unmarried life. Janine's (Jennifer Connelly) not sure if she can trust her husband, Ben (Bradley Cooper), who can't quite trust himself around Anna (Scarlett Johansson). Anna can't decide between the sexy married guy, or her straightforward, no-sparks standby, Conor (Kevin Connolly), who can't get over the fact that he can't have her. And Mary (Drew Barrymore), who's found an entire network of loving, supportive men, just needs to find one who's straight.

If you've ever sat by the phone wondering why he said he would call, but didn't, or if you can't figure out why she doesn't want to sleep with you anymore, or why your relationship just isn't going to the next level...
He (or She) Is Just Not That Into You.

Source: www.hesjustnotthatintoyoumovie.com

You know how we, women, tend to blame the men for causing the failure in a relationship when in actual fact, we are being in denial?

Not being discouraging here but sometimes we just tend to make ourselves better by saying..

"Oh he doesn't deserve you."
"He is just intimidated by your level of maturity."
"Screw him. He doesn't know what he is losing"

Reality is, he is just not interested. Haha.

I didn't realise it myself, not until I actually watched the movie. True enough, it hit me hard 'til I felt like my nose fell out of place.
Whether we like it or not...

We, women, are sooooooooo in denial.

But we still kick ass. :)

The movie is a definitely must-watch. The movie is not heavily filled with romance. It's light hearted, witty and everything sweet. It's not the usual chick flick which guys hate watching. I bet guys would be glued to their seats watching this movie.

I'd give a definite
5/5 :)

Of pretty petals and sunshine thrills

2009-02-17T23:19:00.009+08:00

Of endless spreads of greenery....
And the crimson sky that has no end.

Of splashes of colourful beauty....
And the joyful cheers of kids running around.

The wonderful spread of mother nature.

Pure magical.

Bliss.

It's times like this where I can smile and tell myself that it's not bad afterall.
Lets sway to the rhythms, free our minds and just forget the world.

It is life's cheap thrills that make the world seem like a better place.

Pictures are taken by DIDI at Hort Park.

Drained out.

2009-02-13T23:45:00.000+08:00

The anger and frustration is definitely tiring me out.
Pooped.

Amsyar's 1st birthday

2009-02-08T21:21:00.005+08:00

This is rather delayed because the event was on the 1st of February, which was a week ago, but his birthday was on the 31st of January.

Amsyar Afiq, as of today, is 1 year and 7 days old.

Pictures only. I'll let you guys oogle on that lil kid.

And sure as hell, I'm jealous of his presents!!!!! Can I be ONE again? please ah please.

Hi. I'm Amsyar Afiq and it's my 1st Birthday, my 1st ever birthday party!

You bet I'm DAMN happy about it!

What's more with my wonderful Mummy and Daddy who brought me into this world...

And my whole family who's always tolerating my nonse

Although you might not be able to see it through my facial expression, but deep down I'm sure they know how much I love them. I'll just do it in my own language...

"GAEOIDJOAK OIEPAKLD WAAA WAA PEKADPLSFPI EOPAJF"
Hee.

Isn't it suppose to be MY birthday party?! Why are the cousins getting all the fun?!!?!?!?

Oh right. I remember now. I was getting cranky and all because it is suppose to be my naptime. Thanks to Mummy and Daddy for organising it at the wrong time of the day. Hmph.

Oh well, despite getting all cranky, I'm still in the limelight.... :)

And of course, I would like to thank my aunts, uncles, cousins, grandaunts, granduncles for the wonderful toys and clothes and shoes. I still can't figure out why I have so much of them but that doesn't mean I'm willing to share. NO SHARING!

Mine... ALL MINE!

Well, that's all folks. And this is me with my "feeling gorgeous" aunty (in blue) and my other "obviously cute" aunty (in yellow behind the door). But I'm definitely not bothered by both of their nonsense.
AND THANK YOU UNCLE FADHIL FOR THE PICTURES! :)

Till then..

This definitely feels right. :)

What's a girl to do....

2009-02-05T22:52:00.002+08:00

What's a girl to do when she is feeling insecure about the things around her?
What's a girl to do when she suddenly loses all sense of direction?
What's a girl to do when she is left stranded, all alone with noone to talk to?
What's a girl to do when she had her hopes high only to find them shattered into smithereens the next minute?

What's a girl to do when she felt so excited, looking forward to it, but it never came?
What's a girl to do when she is working so hard, only to find out that it didn't pay off?
What's a girl to do when she feels scared of her own feelings?
What's a girl to do when she thought that what she did was right, but only to see that it made it worst?

What is a girl to do.......?

Supposedly.... not

2009-02-02T23:40:00.004+08:00

Supposedly, it's my last day of SIP last Friday, but my clever LO (Liaison Officer, bacially, my lecturer la) brainwashed me into agreeing to extend my stay with OCBC. Right.

What did he do?

He did this.................

Ok no. He didn't.

He just asked a simple question..
"What do you wanna do after this? Do you still wanna work?"

And me, being the dumb one, said yes.
Right. A simple yes and it took away one more month of my 19th year.

BAIK PER!

I have to drag my sorry ass out of bed early in the morning, out of the house, take the bus, to the MRT and keep my eyes open for the whole entire journey, sit in the office chair, face the laptop, surf here and there, to and fro the pantry, count the seconds to 6.30pm, the train ride back to Tampines and walking home to my block.

Oh such joy! *squirms*

(It's all about the money.. all about the dam dam da-da dam dam)

Well anyway, I had a blastful weekend.
With the family and gf.. and someone

Headed down to Henderson Waves with the family for a short while just to visit the place..

When you are tired, going uphill just to get up to Henderson Waves, you're bound to have that expression (Looks at Dad). Don't worry if you look funny. It's kinda "normal". Hahaaahahahaha.

Look Ma! NO HANDS!
AND WAY ABOVE SEA LEVEL!

My sister is so kental to be posing like that. Like some tourist dude who is a geek and tryna act cool.

"GELOMBANG HENDERSON"
That's right people... let's go catch some GELOMBANGs

Well, feeling la kan. Biler lagi nak feeling2. HaaaaAHHAHAHAAahahahAHAHa
What more can I annoy all of you other then my face and my macam paham posings. :p

Gorgeous place.

To someone: Bring me there please. :)

Oh, and has anyone tried the Oreo Cookies Milkshake from Spize at Simpang Bedok?

It was a first for me for dinner that night, and the only thing that went through my mind after the first sip and when it touches my taste buds..... was...

UMMMM UMMMM UUUMMMM UUUMMMMM.

I better get some sleep and have dreams of oreo cookies...

Coz I sure as hell do not wanna end up like this dude......

Chinese New Year

2009-01-25T23:32:00.007+08:00

In conjunction with Chinese New Year....

To all my Chinese friends out there

GONG XI FA CAI!

XIN NIAN KUAI LE!
(Can you imagine I had to google this to ensure that this is the right spelling? Haha. I had it at "xin yen kwai le" or something like that before googling it :p)

I considered getting a cheongsam for myself this year but I thought I would look like some oversized wrapped dim sum in it.......

......

Ok maybe not. But metaphorically, you get what I mean.

Well anyway, since its CNY, Ghost Town is here.
So where should we go when its CNY?

Nowhere. Stay at home, get some oranges, hide under the blankets, and count the number of sacs each orange has.

Ok I was kidding. That would be psychotic.

LETS GO TO THE BEACH!

Its been a while since I had any bbq so it was bbq time with the family over at Changi Beach. So 13 was our lucky number for the day.

Aren't the charcoals cute? Seriously, aren't they? They're like...
chestnuts. REALLY!

That family was having trouble setting up the tent. As you noticed, the tree leaves are being blown by the STRONG wind. So we were laughing and "commentating" on their "setting up tent" action.

Some bangla with the most slumber-est ever face and the most relek jig jag attitude, place this BLOODY BIG TONG beside our pit. Wah, felt like transforming into Jackie Chan like in Rush Hour and whack him into that TONG. *HAI YAK!*

My father had to push it to further away from our area. Kesian.

I'm so bad at Twister, I fell after the 5th attempt to change position. Twister practice anyone?

"Ok.. we jump on 3 ok?"

"1...2...3..*jump!*"

...

Right.
We were suppose to jump ON 3 or AFTER?

Uhm.... ??

2009-01-18T00:03:00.002+08:00

Current thoughts: *blank*

Oh, I'm considering a change to my blog layout.
Yes.. AGAIN! :)

Of the disappearance

2009-01-12T22:46:00.004+08:00

*sweeps off dust from blog*

*coughs* *sniffs*

Excuse me for the rather lack of updates and "long" disappearing act. The past week was rather hectic and thanks to someone for all the time spent with me. Thank you! :)

My desktop is being such an ass. I need to get an external harddisk just to store all my pictures and songs.

*notes down on To-Buy list*

Well anyway, I'm not on hiatus.

I'm just having the time of my life. Haha.

Temasek Poly had it's open houseon the 8th - 10th of Jan and Nira had it's performance on the 9th. Being me, loving Nira with all my heart.. cehhh steeaaddyyy ah.. I sanggup take half day from work to join them in their performance. (An excuse to get off work early too. :p) So the show was great. Loads of debuts for example, Fau on the ibu, Dinah on the anak, Mira as juara, me on the gong and Fizah on the canang.

My babies are growing.. aaawww....~

Well, anyway, pictures are finally uploaded from DIDI. Aku menyumpah nak upload gambar ni somer haaahhh.. Hard disk running out of space!

Despite having to reach home late after trainings, and attend work the next morning, tetaaapp sayaaaannngggg Nira :) And thanks to someone for being there, sending me to and from work and Nira. Heeee... :)

Counting the days til PAY DAY!
And also to the end of my SIP! WOOOOHHHH!!

Signing off,

Someone told me, good things come to those who wait....
But for me, this is definitely the best. :)

Bestest Birthday.

2009-01-04T01:03:00.004+08:00

I must say, my 19th birthday is the bestest so far. Nothing out of the ordinary.
It was plain, sweet and simple. What more can I ever ask for.

Firstly, where did I countdown to the new year? Home sweet home.
Haha.

Toldcha it was plain, sweet and simple.

All the cousins and uncles and aunts came over. Watched a few DVDs and then ate alot of food. Which later switched on to CH 5 Countdown Party which was such a bore. Seriously, it was SUPER BORING nak mampos k. I was literally yawning. Haha.

Then the countdown begins, and then the auld lang syne, and then the cake, and then the birthday song..

Cut cake..
Eat cake..
Receive Presents...

I had no idea what the hell I was saying in this picture. Haha. Apeeerr dieerrrr Naqiaaaahh.

Open presents...

Sleep.

Haha. Simple affair.

In the later part of the day, Grandma decided to treat me to a birthday lunch at Chai Chee Seafood. Too much food yet so little space. But enjoyed the lunch treat. Hurhur. Later that night, met a few of the cousins and someone for some chill out session.

The next day, met up with someone and GF and Ayu and Aleeya and other guys and I received MORE PRESENTS!!! :)

SO THE SERONOK OK! Especially with someone eh. :p

And just now, had another birthday lunch with Tok Om and family at Fresh Bulgoggi at Downtown East E-Hub. It was like a 3-in-1 birthday celebration for Tok Om, Me and Dessy. :)

Simple yet memorable.

I had a blast for my 19th birthday! Nak lagi please.

To someone, THANK U! :)

BEST KAN!!!!!!

HAPPY 2009! ... HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

2009-01-01T02:35:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 2009 Y'ALL!

May the new year be rockin' your ass off more then before!

AND

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The Wishlist

2008-12-25T22:56:00.006+08:00

Looking at the countdown to your right, you would have probably abt 6 more days from the point I posted this entry, to get me a birthday present. Yes, the "tak tau malu" side of me is kicking in.

So this would be my precious wishlist... lo and behold...

Samsung F480 in Pink

iPod Touch (just the 8gb one will do :p)

Crumpler 4-million dollar home camera bag (in any bright colour :p)

This exact Baby-G watch and make sure it's black. (I saw this at Tampines Mall, level 2 just outside Starhub :p)

A Juicy Couture Charm Bracelet.

A wallet. Preferably this size. No brand specifically. :)

A Tiffany & Co. Mesh Ring

A pair of Adidas Slippers in Size 7. To be safe, buy me a size 8 :p

There's alot more I can put up here but I rather not. I wouldn't want people to suffer from heart attacks and decide to not read my blog anymore. LOL.

So, you've got 6 more days.

MERRY CHRISTMAS! :)

Movie Reviews

2008-12-22T22:35:00.003+08:00

Based on a memoir by British author Danny Wallace the studio picked up in April 2005, the story centers on a man who decides to change his life by saying yes to absolutely everything that comes his way. Saying "yes" leads him on a series of unexpected comedic adventures that turn his whole life upside-down.

Jim Carrey stars as Carl Allen, a man who signs up for a self-help program based on one simple principle: say yes to everything...and anything. At first, unleashing the power of "yes" transforms Carl's life in amazing and unexpected ways, but he soon discovers that opening up his life to endless possibilities can have its drawbacks.

This movie is HILARIOUS!
A must watch.

5/5 :)

***

Bella Swan (Kristen Stewart) has always been a bit different, never caring about or fitting in with the trendy girls at her Phoenix, Arizona high school. When her mother Renee (Sarah Clarke) remarries and decides to move with her new husband to Florida, and Bella decides to go live with her father, Charlie (Billy Burke), in the rainy little town of Forks, Washington, she doesn't expect anything to change.

Then she meets the mysterious and dazzlingly beautiful Edward Cullen (Robert Pattinson), a boy unlike any she's ever met. Intelligent and witty, his piercing eyes see straight into her soul. Soon, Bella and Edward are swept up in a passionate and decidedly unorthodox romance. Edward can run faster than any cheetah, he can stop a moving car with his bare hands, and he hasn't aged since 1918. Most importantly, he's a vampire. Like all vampires, he's immortal. He doesn't drink human blood (they're vampire "vegetarians"), which is rare among the vampire population. Instead, they go on regular "hiking" trips, where they feed on prey such as grizzly bears and mountain lions.

For Edward, Bella is the thing he has waited ninety years for - a soul mate. But the closer they get, the more Edward must struggle to resist the primal pull of her scent, which could send him into an uncontrollable frenzy. And what will they do when James (Cam Gigandet), Laurent (Edi Gathegi), and Victoria (Rachel Lefevre) come into town and James sets his sights on Bella? Will true love prevail when Edward is forced to save her life and conquer his thirst? The true question is, When you can live forever, what do you live for?

Ok, so I heard, this was a talked about movie. I had no idea why it was so popular, which eventually I found out it was from this famous novel of some sort.

To me, it was okay. The action is tool ittle. There were bits and pieces of the classic Dracula story, but it didn't make me jump on my sit.

Nonetheless, EDWARD CULLEN IS FUCKING HOT! *fans self*
To you, don't be jealous ok. Of course I would choose him over you anytime. :p

3/5 :)

AFF Suzuki Cup 2008, Singapore VS Vietnam

2008-12-22T21:30:00.004+08:00

Well, Singapore lost.

I'm very sure all of us already knew about it.

I was there..

Watching LIVE...

For the very first time. Heh.

The company was great. With all the cousins and friends...

GF CAME! and "her someone"! :p
And someone else also came...... :p Thanks! Loved that you were there. :)

Anyway, back to the game...

The game was not bad. Not as bad as the 1st leg. All the Singaporean fans were at the edge of their seats, literally. Well, I was, if not all. There were too many chances and the SG Lions blew all of it. Despite that, their performance for the 2nd leg had to get some compliments.

Vietnam played a sour game. Fucking drama mamaks. The game barely even got to 1/2 hr and they're already lying down on the pitch, rolling around like some pathetic creature. Seriously. Kudos to the referee for giving out multiple cards to the players. HAH! Fags.

Though, my take for limelight for the SG Lions would go to Shahril Ishak and Md Ridhuan. They played a real good game. They played their positions well for the team.

I wasn't clad in red. I didn't see the significance for having to wear red for the game. I mean, it's not like it's national day or anything. Haha. Someone very semangat hor wear red. :p

Anyway, it was kinda dissapointing seeing the Lions lost. After clinching champions for 2 years and for a straight win throughout the group matches, this was kinda a dramatic lost. Even for fellow fans.

Just some pictures over the weekends...

2008-12-15T00:27:00.003+08:00

Just pictures over the weekends....

No matter the distance, we're still under the same sky

2008-12-13T00:10:00.003+08:00

No matter the distance,
No matter the differences,
We're still under the same sky
We still see the same light

And when you're not here
And when I'm not there
Our love intertwines
Our love never fades away

A classic childhood love story. (Now everyone go aaawww..) :)

***

Ok best. :)

A good day

2008-12-10T22:31:00.003+08:00

Today is a good day.

Eventhough me and Aini got to work 15 mins late this morning, we had seats from Tampines MRT station, which BARELY happens during the morning rush hour. So I thought.. "Something good is gonna happen today."

And something good DID happen today.

No. I didn't get to meet some drop dead gorgeous guy at lunchtime.

Me and Aini got seats from Raffles Place MRT to Tampines MRT. Isn't it great?

No really. Isn't it REALLY great?!

Haha.

Oh wells.

2008 is coming to an end but I wish to stay 18 til forever and beyond. Can? Please?

On another note,

Someone get me this for my birthday. Pretty please! I'll promise I love you til eternity. :)

Marina Barrage

2008-12-07T00:04:00.004+08:00

SELAMAT PENGANTIN BARU! :)

***

Has anyone been to the (correct me if I'm wrong) latest icon in Singapore?

Marina Barrage.

Sounds alien? Yeah, it sounded alien to me a few days ago. Not until just now.

Marina Barrage is like a dam of some sort, where they store processed water. I think a quarter of it is still under construction but the place is kinda gorgeous. Great place to chill, enjoy the breeze and relax the mind.

So not gonna say much. Feast your eyes to some pictures
(Don't mind the outfit I'm in. Was from a wedding with the family and decided to drop by Marina Barrage to have a look. Hah.)

***

Anyway, about my waxing experience the other day?
Great!
Really.

Other than the fact that my skin is rather sensitive and 'til now it itches the hell out of me, I loved the treatment. What more, Strip's waxing parlour rocks the shit. I love the parlour! It didn't hurt, just that each time the therapist pulled out the strip, I startled abit. But it didn't hurt. It was alright.

Must.
Not.
Scratch.

I'm still getting used to the hairless feeling of my arms. Haha. It feels funny.
Next up, brazilian?

Signing off,

Losing my virginity... STRIP!

2008-12-03T23:23:00.002+08:00

It's either I've gone totally bonkers and out of my mind or just trying to take up a challenge and test my pain threshold.

Yes sir. You read it right.

I'm losing my virginity...
this Friday (wah, got timing some more)

to.....

STRIP! (Check out the webbie. It's kinda funky!)

:)

Gotcha didn't I? heh.

I'm feeling excited, yet.... scared? People said it's kinda painful, what more I'm a virgin waxee. Hurhur. I'm not gonna wax my whole body, if that's what you were thinking. If that was the case, it would be suicidal. LOL. It would only be my arms. :)

Any tips from non-virgin waxees? I don't want to end up going home like a sore polar bear with my arms hanging out like some chimpanzee. Heeeee...

Cousins night out

2008-11-30T23:23:00.003+08:00

Weekends were great but it had to be shortlived with the punching realisation of having to work tomorrow. :(

Nonetheless, weekends were well spent.

I'll upload the pictures soon... but I so have to post this picture because I find it HILARIOUS!

Trust me, this was UNPLANNED AT ALL! Haahahahaaaahahaha! LOL!
Everyone's expression.. TOTALLY PRICELESS!

I'm not dead.

2008-11-24T22:31:00.007+08:00

Note: Content of this post will be heavy with images.

No. I'm not dead.
Nor am I depressed.

If that's what you thought.

Been busy as hell! With work, rehearsals, practices, Pentas, family event.
Saving up this wee bit of energy I have left just to blog.

Pentas: Sutera, 21st November 2008

Eventhough my supervisor gave me a whole day leave, I decided to come by work in the morning, ok it wasn't really half. It was only..... 3 hrs? Haha. Yeah yeah, you might say I'm trying to get on the good side of things. HAH. Wrong. I had some work to do and it worries me knowing that I haven't finish it. Really. It does.

Well anyway, after work, trained down to school and preps began for the big show that night. Darn right I was excited. Despite the very very tired me, I was so very excited.

The show was awesome.

Awesome...
Awesomer...

AWESOME-EST!

I just loved loved loved it. I loved the girls more. I loved Nira most! Aww man. Alhamdulillah, I didn't backed out last minute. I wanted to bccause I couldn't take it. But thank god, I didn't.

We rocked the stage didn't we, girls?

Like how my hair rocks the shit....?

HAHAAAHAHAHHAHA! Gosh. I look barbaric. But the hair still rocks! Haha.

And thanks Nano darling for coming! :)

SilatulRahim, 22nd November 2008

It was a great family event. Everything was a success. The family ties strengthen, everyone had fun, everyone enjoyed themselves.

The performances were great applause for the MC, Mr Usop, for an entertaining show. Not gonna elaborate much..

But I have to warn you, feast your eyes on the DESSERTS!

WARNING: EXCESSIVE SALIVATING MAY OCCUR!

Gingerbread House!

Chewy Chocolate Fudge Brownie Teddy Cake!

from cravingforbrownies.com

I warned you didn't I? And those chocolate tarts you see...... DA BOMB I TELL U! DA BOMB!

And then it's SHOWTIME!

The committee that made it all happened

And then night fall.....

Signing off....

As much as we know that.... But the fact is....

2008-11-16T22:53:00.003+08:00

I still remembered well enough how she took care of me whenever parents are out to work. She would cook me a plate of her best nasi goreng with all sort of surprises in it.

I still remembered how she would always always always visit my room after midnight to see if I was asleep or not, but I was always still awake. She kept saying..

"Bagus Naqiah tidur lambat. Nenek ader jugak kawan.."
"It's good that you actually sleep late. At least I would have company..."

And I would always "ngomel" at her..

"Nenek asal belom tido? Aper sajer tau buat.. Haha"
"Why aren't you asleep yet grandma? Whatever are you doing up so late..Haha"

I still remembered how she loved gripping my hand tight whenever she walks down the stairs or whenever my family brings her out. I was the one who gave her the support and hold her hand to walk.

I still remembered how she protected me when I was about to get beaten up by my parents. (not gonna elaborate.)

I still remembered how she consoled me whenever I had a disagreement with my parents.

I still remembered how she would say that she loved seeing me eat coz I made the food looked soo good and she would always have the appetite to eat.

I still remembered how she advised me to never ever disrespect my parents no matter how much I think that it wasn't my fault.

She was my saviour.
She was my pillar of strength.
She was my idol.
She was my role model.

It has been 8 days..

Yet, the fact that she is now gone forever still hasn't sink in.

As much as we know that she is no longer there...
As much as we know that she is in a better place now...
As much as we know that she has suffered enough...
As much as we know that she has been fighting hard...

The whole family misses her.
Each mention of the name "Arwah Nenek" saddens me. I tear up each time trying to say "Arwah Nenek". I can't even bring myself to say "Arwah" when saying "Nenek".

It's not that I don't want to let her go.
But, I can't believe that she's gone.

A person whom everyone thought had the undying will to fight back.
The "never-say-die" attitude.

Everything is gonna be different in the house.

I promised her to drive her around when I get my license.
But I didn't even manage to.

I promised her that I'd bring her out for dinner when I get my first pay from my SIP.
But the time didn't come.

I keep on staring at her room for a few seconds each time I pass by.

It just feels.........................
silent.
still.

I just miss her very much.
But right now, I'd give all my Fatihah to her, arwah Tok and arwah Adik.

Nek, kalau jumpe adik, ckap dgn adik, Naqiah rinduuuuu sgt kat dier k.
Naqiah pon rinduuuuuuu sgt kat Nenek. Nenek jaga diri baik2 k. :')

PENTAS: Sutera

2008-11-15T00:26:00.004+08:00

Lembut, apa nilainya?

Pentas Sutera merupakan pementasan yang
memaparkan hidup seorang individu yang dibelenggu masalah.
Kerana cinta yang murni, apa yang akan beliau lakukan?
Akankah putus asa menjadi kata muktamad?
Dengan mengekalkan reputasi produksi tahunan kami,
persembahan tahun ini menjanjikan 2 jam yang akan membawa
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Daintiness, what is its worth?

Sutera (Silk), is the chosen theme for this year’s Pentas because it
resembles the controversial issues faced by the lead
character, Helmy. Silk, being a soft and translucent material that is
prohibited for Malay men to wear or use, resembles the controversy
between the character’s dream and societal expectations.
The fragility of the material also
aptly represents his emotion throughout his struggles.

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When the time is here...

2008-11-09T12:38:00.002+08:00

She lived a good life.
She has suffered enough.

I can't bear to see her in such a state

And the time is now...

It was her last goodbye........

I love you very much.
I'm gonna miss you very very much......

Nenek

Still trying to get use to it

2008-10-30T23:38:00.002+08:00

I guess my blogging activity has toned down by alot. I'm barely blogging nowadays. Maybe because I'm still trying to get used to the idea of working 8.5 hrs, 5 days a week. I've realised that being a working adult isn't easy. At all.

I've come to understand what my parents mean when they say "been working hard" and being tired and all. I hardly have time for myself, now that I've been working and it's only been the 2nd week! I guess I'm drained out because of the travelling to and fro. What more with the morning rush hour and the ugly crowds in the evening.

Though, it's kinda fun, I should say, being in this working environment. Well, for the past 18 years of my growing up, this is the first time ever I actually worked. Yes. First time EVER. I've been settling my sorry ass down at home for the entire 18 years without earning a single cent. lol

Yes. I can be a brat. Or maybe I am.

Naaaaahh..

GOODNIGHT KIDS!

Hoping...

2008-10-27T23:48:00.002+08:00

Right now, all I can do is hope and pray hard for the best of what's to come.
Insyallah. Amin.

Work

2008-10-22T22:28:00.003+08:00

I did alot of scribbling at work for the past 2 days. Hurhur.

It's only the 3rd day of work and I'm sick. REALLY SICK.

I'm refraining myself from getting an MC though. It's hardly been a week so I'll just tahan as much as I can la hor. Work has been quite mundane maybe it's because it's only the first few days and there's either nothing or nothing much to do but I ain't complaining. Today I was given a few tasks but with a bad flu and fever, not very fun. Not fun at all.

I got sick yesterday, but it got worst today despite drinking the panadol cold hot remedy last night. So today I bought the Panadol FluMAX at Watsons during lunch just now. I've yet to see the effects though. I've ate it for 3 times today coz I can't stand the flu and fever.

Mr FLU and Mrs Fever, PLEASE GO AWAY!

Nira jalan raya

2008-10-18T00:28:00.005+08:00

Let's make this short and sweet okay.

8 houses.
17 people.
1 van.
2 words..

GEREK GILEEEEERRRRR!! :)

A new look

2008-10-15T11:27:00.002+08:00

Ahh yes. A change in layout. Another clean one.. simple, white. I don't like to banyak songeh with my skins or I'll get irritated. Hurhur.

What the hell am I up to these days.... you wonder?
Nothing.

No really. This isn't sarcasm.

I'm still on holidays (it's been 2 months :p) but this would be my last week of holidays and I'm still doing...

Yeah you got it. Nothing.

Next week would be the start of my SIP over at OCBC. Nervous? Excited? Yeah, a lil bit of both. Though I'm not really looking forward to the office look 8 hrs per day, 5 days per week but it doesn't leave me with much choice does it? You can't always have it your way. Hurhur.

Ok back to my raya collection.

Syawal still

2008-10-13T23:14:00.006+08:00

I've always had the most ideas on what to blog....
when I'm actually NOT blogging. Typical, yes?

Right when I'm sitting infront of the computer, surfing facebook, bloghopping, msn-ing and whatever possible stuff I could do online, my fingers don't feel any sparks coming from this brain of mine to give me the ideas to blog. It's bloody annoying wa cakap sama lu.

Ok so it's still Syawal and despite a recent lost in the family, we still had to celebrate raya as per normal. Life has to go on.. doesn't it?

Raya visits has been fine. Home has been receiving many relatives and of course, duit collection I got many2. Hurhur...

Pictures for your viewing....

Snapshots of the guests that came to my house

A picture taken with the very cute Adil and Kak Sue

Me in the car, jalan raya-ing with family

From left: Noah, Dhea, Jonah, Dessy

From left: Dessy, Jonah, Dhea

The adorable kids :)

Father with a very, "forced-smiling", Dhea. LOL

2 aunts and a niece

The food so sedaaaaaapppp at Kak Elfa's place and look at my Dad. Hurhur..

Please ignore the uncle behind me. LOL! I can't stop laughing looking at this picture. LOL!

Oh and after like a week plus of raya-ing, I woke up with a fever yesterday, had no mood to eat, drained out of energy with a bad throat and tongue and weak from head to toe. But still had the mood to go jalan raya. ENDURANCE! :p

My sickly face and my tak kuasa and serabai nak mampus hair.

And also the mood to challenge cousin Adan playing DJ Max Portable 2 on the PSP. LOL!

Goodbye..

2008-10-06T01:46:00.002+08:00

Goodbye is always the hardest word to say and the toughest to experience.
However, all of us have to bid farewell at times throughout our lifetime.

To all fellow friends out there,
Cherish your loved ones. I mean it. From parents and siblings, to grandparents and uncles/aunts, to cousins and friends, to nieces and nephews....

You'll never know when he/she is gonna bid his/her final goodbye.
Disagreements and quarrels are part and parcel of life itself. We just have to be a lil more patient in dealing with the situation.
However, we always have to overlook the anger, hatred and revenge in ourselves and appreciate his/her existence in your life and begin questioning the reason for it.

And as much as we try to achieve several things at a time and having a dire need to always give our best... there is ALWAYS a limit.
When you can't, means you can't.
Never push yourself to the extent where even your own heart, body, mind and soul can't handle the pressure.

As for my final say...

My deepest heartfelt condolonces goes to the family.

Hari Raya Update

2008-10-04T03:19:00.005+08:00

Hari Raya has been going all mighty fine for me. I mean, what more could I ask for. With the "green packets" coming my way... EUPHORIA!!

I'M RICH! almost. hurhur

Well one thing I pretty much look forward to during Hari Raya is the assortment of kuihs that are laid out on the table in the living room. I mean, that's what makes Hari Raya... HARI RAYA! The KUIHs!! And of course, what is kuih eating with no F&N drinks. The colourful array of them drinks. However, I believe I've had one too many kuihs for now and it's only the... hmmm.. 3rd day of raya?

I've been self-serving myself to the kuihs at home. My mum screams whenever that happens. Next thing you know, the guests that comes over to my place are all left with just empty kuih Raya bowls filled with crumbs. Hurhur

Other than the kuihs, another best thing about Hari Raya is you get to meet RELATIVES! The ones you haven't meet before, you get to meet on Raya. Isn't that great? Nothing beats having to strengthen ties between relatives, be it close or long distance. Right?

And of course, the cute kids having fun playing with each other. One who thought that kids are the must horrible inventions of the planet, would even bear the noise the kids make on such a festive month.

So how's your Hari Raya been?
Well, y'all should know how mine went by now. :)

HARI RAYA!

2008-10-02T13:30:00.002+08:00

HARI RAYA!!!!! *screams with Hari Raya songs in the background*

'nuff said.

Hari Raya Preps Part 3

2008-09-30T11:40:00.000+08:00

Finally, RAYA IS HERE!

I'm done with decorating the room. I woke up late and I got screamings from Mother. LOL. Well at least I cleaned and decored my room well and good sey.

The kandang which is, in actual fact, also known as my bedroom. Yes. I have more plushies and bantal busuk then actual pillows I actually need and use. Well, I do share a room with my younger sister.

Anyway, the lamps are now fixed, credits to Father. However, as of early in the afternoon just now, my eardrums split all thanks to the drill. I hate drillings.

After the lamps are done and deal with, I needed to clear my kandang which seemed like a tsunami just came and left. OH THE MESS! I can't stand mess. I mean I might be lazy but when the mood comes where I'm very particular about everything looking neat and tidy, I come to be a perfectionist.

And after much cleaning and vacuuming with Raya songs blasting thru the speakers of my computer, with me singing my ass out like I'm doing the takbir raya without a mic, finally....

Finally.... SATISFACTION!

Oh and to end off, I leave you with an announcement from a "muf-suker-makan-rot-i" with regards to Hari Raya...

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!!

Hari Raya Preps Part 2

2008-09-30T01:59:00.007+08:00

Hello Kids!

Hari Raya is less then 24 hours away. Gosh.. THE EXCITEMENT! *squirms*

However, Raya preps aren't over.
This is part 2.

I've thrown out loads of rubbish from my room way before Raya. It's left to decorate and clean up whatever stuff that need not be thrown out.

Curtains are up and the bedsheet has been bought. There's even a colour theme that matches my wall, or rather, blends in well with my wall. I'm sure you know how my wall looks like.....

Oh and it's a year old now. A year and a few days old to be exact. The date is written...

I think I'm gona change it next year.
*insert screams of parents here*

Anyway, preparations hasn't been smooth though. Grandma got warded last Tuesday because of low blood cell count and she's so weak because she hasn't been eating. So it's best for her to stay over at the hospital so at least she wouldn't be bothered and get her nutrition and of course plenty of rest. So I have been breaking fast over at the hospital with family and relatives. Not very appropriate though. LOL. But so far no complains :)

Grandma would be home by late afternoon, later today. So she's all replenished and energised well and good for Raya celebrations. Who knows, she might even be able to do laps after she gets back. LOL. Yippee!

It was retail therapy over at IKEA. I so badly wanna decorate my room and Mother wanted to buy a few glassware and LOADS of tissues to stock up for Raya when the guests comes. It was a Sunday and strangely enough, it wasn't crowded and of all people I bumped into, it had to be AMIRHAZIQ ANAK PAK HUSSAIN! Haha. *Beli carpet hijau ye bang?*

Well anyway, I bought LAMPS! I've yet to fix them though.

Oh and baju raya is also done and shoes and bags.

So....Checklist..
Curtains, done.
Bedsheet, done.
Lamps, done.
Baju Raya, done.
Shoes, done.
Bag, done.
Pampering service for self, done.
Raya mood, DONE!

No, I did not go for liposuction nor botox nor plastic surgery, if that's what you were thinking. For the record, I didn't revamp my hair for raya this year. My hair has been thru enough damage. I wouldn't wana end up going bald for the next raya now wouldn't I?

Oh and when we got home, the key couldn't get through the keyhole. LOL!

I can't wait for Raya!

Hari Raya Preps

2008-09-25T01:35:00.004+08:00

Gosh. I'm so evil to leave my blog all alone.

Excuse me for the lack of updates. I suddenly lost the ability to compose my words and come up with a meaningful entry. LOL

Moreover, much hoo-haa is going on with the Hari Raya Preps and what nots.

How are your Raya preps? Good? Mine's great so far. But somehow, I'm not getting any luck on having enough time for iftar sessions with the friends. BOOO!!~ Well I've had a few iftars but.. ok nvm.

Kuih making is fun. I had to restrain myself from plunging my nose into the kuih tray once it's out from the oven. Oh and of course from excessive drooling. Kuih tarts, kuih makmur, choc chip cookies so far. It's a yearly affair. But I'm afraid if the kuihs won't be able to last til Raya. Oh but I'm sure it will *counts number of bottles*

Other than the kuihs, the lampu lap lips also makes me a very excited goober. Father has been switching on the lampu lap lip at home quite often now. And so is every other nearby Muslim household I see around the neighbourhood. Some even looked like there's a disco going on. Really. If I ever see that house again, I'll snap a picture as proof k. Excessive flashing light bulbs in colours of blue, green, red and yellow. It'd be no surprise if they see stars during Hari Raya.

And of course, what's Ramadhan and Hari Raya without ~~a trip~~ TRIPS to Geylang. Yes, I've been there countless of times. Some people might not stand the crowd and the heat, well yours truly can't stand the crowd and heat. But what is Ramadhan and Hari Raya without the hustle and bustle of the Muslim community trying to get the best kuihs, Hari Raya outfits and home decor and the lelong-ings of the vendors trying to sell off their stuff.

*******

Oh and somehow or rather, I noticed Father being obsessively excited with DIDI and kept on asking me to snap pictures almost EVERYWHERE because I bring DIDI everywhere I go, apparently. LOL. Yes, the model is me father. I can't believe fathar is a narcicisst at heart. :p

Oh and trips to Geylang ends with a good ol' classic hot Teh Tarik from the local Mamak coffeeshops. BAYEK AH MAN! WA SUKA LU PUNYA TEH TARIK!

With love,
CHANTEK!~

Finally..

2008-09-15T00:35:00.003+08:00

Finally....

All Modules - DONE
Major Project - DONE

I'm as good as graduated already. Alhamdulillah, berkat bulan Ramadhan, I got through all my modules. The Major Project presentation also went smoothly. I'm only left to finish up my SIP which will start I don't know when.

Other than that, I'm free as a bird!!!

Also, it's been 2 weeks of fasting. Two more weeks and we'll be celebrating Hari Raya. Gosh, how time flies. I'm sure the highlight of Ramadhan is the Geylang Bazaar. Despite everyone dissing the crow, we still go there because we need the necessities for Hari Raya.

I've been there a number of times. It's nice seeing the Malay Muslim community gathering together with the spirit of Ramadhan and Syawal. I look forward most to the food. LOL!
DENDENGS AND BURGER RAMLYS!

Now it's time to start baking the kuihs!

Bring 'em kuihs y'all

With love,

The fasting month

2008-09-11T01:50:00.008+08:00

Last two days, on the 9th, Nira had their first training, after a loooonnggg time. Oh how I miss those girls. It's great seeing them again.

As it was fasting month, Nira decided to have iftar together.. was grrrrrrr-reat.
Lots of plans coming up for the girls. I'm super excited nak mampos la ok.

After a short training (you don't expect us girls to go shouting like mad dogs during fasting month right. KELAT OK!), took orders from the girls and we were lucky we had so very caring people like Achiok and Fid to help us buy food from the mini food bazaar at 900+ in Tampines.

Food ranged from nasi briyani to otak2 to kebabs to burger ramlys to macaroni goreng to potato chips to mini pizzas and finally, fresh cut fruits. Mini pizzas and fruits courtesy of yours truly :p. Food was brilliant.. what more with wonderful company. After breaking fast, I felt like I was pregnant with quadruplets. Gosh.. MY STOMACH! Haha.

Anyway, everyone was darn full after breaking fast. So while waiting for the food to digest and for Pentas taklimat to start, we decided to entertain ourselves with games. Dinah wanted to play the game called...

The Chicken, the Anak and the Wolf.

LOL! Ok inside joke. But then she was referring to the Mother Hen game. HAAHAHAHAHAAAAAHAHA.

We all laughed like hyenas on overdose of alcohol. Really.

Well anyway, all of us had heavy stomachs to move around much so we settled for passing messages....

Messages that were passed....

"Anak Pak Mail makan nasi goreng yang belom digoreng"
Which turned out to be..
"Anak Pak Mat makan nasi goreng"
Which I thought was..
"Mak I makan nasi goreng"

Second one was...
"Harapkan pagar, pagar makan padi, harapkan Naq, Naq makan burger"
Which turned out to be..
"Harapkan pagar, pagar makan padi, harapkan Naq, Naq makan burger ramly"

The ramly was added by me. LOL!
And no, I'm not a fanatic of burger ramlys, mind you, but some people think I should be an ambassador for Ramlys. -.-

Well it was pure fun fun fun..!!!!

Anyway, since I bought DIDI along, I decided to take him outdoors :)
Excuse me for my amateurish shots. I'm still learning :)

That was it. I LOVE NIRA!
And DIDI of course :p

Happy Birthday

2008-09-07T00:34:00.003+08:00

Happy 13th Birthday Adik!!!

Dah besaaarrr adik aku ni satu... It was on the 5th btw.

Well, fasting month has been alright. So far so good.

BUT THE FOOD!
Gosh. SO MUCH FOR WANTING TO LOSE WEIGHT!

All that indulgence....... ARGH! *help!*

Anyone planning to establish a "Fats Charity"? I'd be a willing donor. Please.

And now...

2008-08-31T16:02:00.006+08:00

And now.. I present to you... DIDI

The first few shots off Didi.....

I AM A VERY HAPPY HAPPY GOOBER!!!! :)

And of course, to all fellow Muslims...

Have A Blessful Ramadhan!
Selamat menjalanai Ibadah Puasa......

Bring on the dendengs and air kathira! \m/

Didi, my love

2008-08-31T00:55:00.001+08:00

I'm glad he came into my life. The feeling of having him in my arms... indescribable.

The adrenaline rush...
The excitement...
The love...

Didi.. it has been a long time since I've waited for you.

Now, you're truly and forever mine.

I LOVE YOU! :)

Nenek's 70th

2008-08-25T23:00:00.007+08:00

Yesterday was Nenek's 70th birthday and the family had kenduri cum Nenek's birthday celebration over at my place.

It was food food galore!

Too bad didn't manage to snap pictures.

Bone steak.
Bee Hoon goreng.
Black Pepper Crab.
Sardine puffs.
Nonya kuehs.
Upside down pudding (I think)
Assortment of fruits.
Birthday cake. (Courtesy of Royals Premium Cakes & Pies)

Lots more ah.

The funny thing is, I was so busy doing up Nenek's video montage, I DIDN'T EAT!!
At night, I had gastric pangs. BOOOO!!!!~

Well anyway, the celebration was a succes. Everyone loved the video I made.
Alhamdulillah.

To dearest Nenek,

Happy 70th birthday!

The Cucus (Grandchildren)

The Anaks and Menantus (Children and In-Laws)

The whole Green Clan.

P.S. The video montage has a super huge file size. I'll upload it soon. :p