BARELY legal, BARELY there.

Hari Raya has been real good I guess. With open houses 'til almost every week, the weekends are just full of raya visits and family time.

I've yet to go raya-ing with the friend. Nira, next week? How? So yeah. I can't wait la to go out with the friends.

School has pretty much been kinda draining for me. I know it's only the start of the second week, but if a report draft has been submitted last week, then I can somehow foresee that the year won't be a "sit back, shake leg and relax" kind of year. With Pentas preps and trainings, hell yeah. This semester will be pretty much hectic. Just hope it won't affect my studies.

But then again, it's all about myself. Or is it?

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Sometimes, I feel like I wanna call it quits. Then again, I don't want to leave my responsibility at a time like this. But, I'm no superwoman to handle everything.

It's not that I can't do it. I just don't know how to. I can be very ambitious in doing such stuffs but I don't want to be like I'm some big fcuk and a smart ass.

I've been a very reserved person since like forever and I wish to keep it that way because I know that it's for my better. I only let the little-est info out and rather keep the main details to myself. I don't ask for people's sympathy. I only ask for understanding.

I'm at an age where parents are very skeptical about letting their kids out. Firstly, I'm a girl. Secondly, I'm the eldest daughter. Lastly, I'm BARELY legal.
Whatever that I do, I'll make sure that family comes first. I want to fulfill my responsiblity as a filial daughter to my parents. Not by being some "goody-two-shoes" bitch but as a simple-living daughter which gives no worries to my parents and lessen their burden.

The last thing that I would wanna do is to hurt them. I've been through alot of shits to get to where I am now, and seriously, it wasn't and easy journey. I've had to go through almost daily squabbles just to be able to be there.

At least, I don't just leave my responsibility hanging for someone to pluck it down frm a tree and swear and curse the hell out of it. I try my best to carry out my duties as a leader for the best of my people. Please vote for me in the coming elections. lol.

However, if I don't get the support that I need, then I don't see why I should even try. Then again, I'm someone who perseveres. If I know I can do it, then I know I will.

I know I've changed alot of myself because I've been through alot of experiences, that are.. well.. let's just say that it's too good to be true.
Then again, everyone changes and I know that I've changed for the better.

Well, *sighs* who says it was gonna be easy anyway.

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Pentas: Rahsia

Temasek Polytechnic Malay Arts Group presents......


An annual Temasek Polytechnic Malay Arts Group production, PENTAS (STAGE), showcases talents from various art forms, mainlay Dance, Drama and Dikir Barat. An energetic and vibrant affair, PENTAS has always been an event to look forward to every year.

This year's production is entitled Rahsia ie 'Secret'. PENTAS: Rahsia portrays the journey of three kids, searching for an answer to a discovery.

Will their journey unravel the mystery?
Will they find out the truth?
Will their questions be answered?

16th November (Friday)
TP Renaissance, (Auditorium 1)
7.30pm, (Doors aopen 7pm)
Free seating, tix at $6.

For more info or for booking of tickets, you can contact me through my email, that is biskot.naq@hotmail.com.

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addiction.

You're my addiction.

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the bitch is love.

Thanx to the bitch, I now have green elf-liked ears, a long moustache and a red dot on my forehead. Thanx eh Ayul. Yet, the bitch is still love la.

More starbuck-ing sessions puh-lease!

Ok so school was..... normal. Not much things happening. It's like it's getting more dull by the minute. Ayul is out. Ayu is out. It's left with only me and Fizah in ITAS. Boo~

No more fun times with the usual bunch. How boring. On top of that, my timetable sucks like major big time and Tuesdays are dreadful. I start at 8 and end at 6. Oh jolly. So what more could I look forward to?

My schedule is pack especially with Nira under my "responsibility". Performances, rehearsals, datelines. Gosh. This year seems so hectic. I guess it's because the dates are so near and time flies so fast. I have 4 block-teaching modules. My timetable is in a mess with different modules back to back. I hate block-teaching. It makes my timetable looks ugly. Well, on the bright side, there wouldn't be any exams for the block-teaching modules. Hurray!!

So it's Tuesday and I'm gonna dread the whole day. Urgh! Why did I get myself into such a course? It kills just to know that school hours are longer than normal working hours. So now I envy those who are working.

Now, now, let's not contemplate so much on my timetable. It won't make a difference either even if I did. Sheesh.

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good luck.

Good Luck dearest cousins for the upcoming O-Levels!

This is the first stage of your youth years to pass through and I know all three of you can do it. It's only a few weeks more until you close all your books and say goodbye to Secondary School.

This is the final leg. So go all out!

GOOD LUCK COUSINS!

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Arjuna

Ku peluk indah manisnya cinta, Semuanya terasa indah,

Bagai di alam cerita cinta,Hadir bahagia selama-lama

Katamu kekasih yang sedang kita alami, Takkan kekal 'tuk selamanya

Mengapa kekasih,Tiada kau percaya, Kebenaran cerita kita

Bagaimanakah lagi untuk aku buktikan, Selamilah pada kejujuranku

Jadikanku arjuna, Arjuna dihatimu, Percayalah oh puteri

Katamu kekasih yang sedang kita alami, Takkan kekal 'tuk selamanya

Mengapa kekasih,Tiada kau percaya, Kebenaran cerita kita

Bagaimanakah lagi untuk aku buktikan, Selamilah pada kejujuranku

Jadikanku arjuna,Arjuna dihatimu, Percayalah oh puteri

Bagaimanakah lagi untuk aku buktikan, Selamilah pada kejujuranku

Jadikanku arjuna,Arjuna dihatimu, Percayalah oh puteri

Bagaimanakah lagi untuk aku buktikan, Selamilah pada kejujuranku

Jadikanku arjuna,Arjuna dihatimu, Percayalah oh puteri

Ooooh... Percayalah bidadari.....

When I heard this off Ria for the first time, I was like...

"OMG OMG! This is Tong Hua!!!!"

And yes, Tong Hua happens to be my most favourite Mandarin song til I actually learnt the lyrics and memorise by heart. Though I didnt really know what the song actually means.

Anyways, Aliff Aziz is the Anugerah 2007 winner. Well, for a guy his age (he is only 16 mind u), he has gone a long way. I mean he won a beladi sum of $10,000 sia from the show. Next year? Anugerah? Me? LOL! Not in a million chance.

I still find that the way he sings is very "air-y" as in I can hear him taking breaths in between lines. Oh well, I'm sure he's gonna work on it la. I mean he won the competition for a reason. Moreover, his record label is with Sony BMG siah. Anyways, kudos and good luck to him. Lucky kid.

Ok so now let's stuff my ears with Benny Bennasi and unscrew my neck joints.

I feel your love now. You're reaching out to me. Your touch.... it took my breath away. I love you.

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Syawal

Syawal has been great and the relatives, the food, the kuih, the money was all I could ask for this Syawal. As usual, with an elderly around the house, Syawal gets better with never ending guests, the forgivings, the laughters, the kids. Simply Wonderful.

Being a family person, I love meeting up with relatives whom I meet especially in Syawal. Setahun sekali je jumpe. Meeting up with such relatives made me realise that no matter how big the world seems to be, it really is just one tiny circle floating in space. We know that we are never alone and realise that we've known each other way before realising that we are relatives or we had created a bond before knowing any blood relation.


A distant cousin? A young uncle? A new niece?


Thanks to Syawal, I've just came to know that I'm already an aunt. AN AUNT! I feel so old la seyy...


Oh wells. Lets not talk about the money I receive. HAHA! Super alot la. I havent even started counting. I'm rich! I'm rich!

That's for savings. Mum aint allowing to spend my raya money. It's for "future" purposes. Sheesh.


Anyways, Syawal has been wonderful. Looking forward to more "jalan raya-ing".


Selamat Hari Raya!
It's raining kuih tarts and F&N drinks.

More pictures @ my multiply

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Selamat Hari Raya.

Ramadan has ended and Syawal comes. A great holy month has left and now it's the start of the celebrations.

Ramadan has thought me alot on patience and responsibility. On top of that, I learnt the art of appreciation. Meaning to say, I'm learning to appreciate that every little bit of life as it comes.

Patience.
I'm known to be very patient. I haven't fumed for a long time (not that I can remember of) and I guess it showed me to appreciate life as it is. Appreciate. Ramadan was the month to abstain from almost everything bad and I've learnt alot. From the aspects of religion, to my own upbringing.

Responsiblity.
Being a leader ain't easy and also, a leader should always be consistent in performing his/her responsibility. As for me, I've realised that I'm not much of "leader" material. I suck big time at leading and everything is just getting bad.My insticts tell me that I'm being "shitlisted" by some and my instincts are never wrong. Though I'm trying my best to redeem myself but all this has to be given some time and that is what I'm really lacking off right now. Sometimes, it's best not to let the matter be taken into our own hands.

To the respective people,
Sorry I've let many of you down. As such a responsibility given, I should have known better to carry out my job and lead. Well, the mistakes can't be undone and all I can do now is to work on it. I'm still learning and I hope that we all learn to work together now onwards.

Many thanks to all my friends whom send me SMS-es wishing Eid Mubarak. My phone has been singing "Ewa Ewa, adik singguh lawa" for every 10 mins. Now my inbox is flooded! lol. I appreciate every single message sent. Thanks all.

Inginku ambil kesempatan ini, pada bulan Syawal, untuk menyusun 10 jari dan memohon maaf atas segala kesalahan dan kesilapan ku kepada sesiapa pun. Harap segala dosa-dosa, terkasar bahasa dan tersilap kata yang mungkin menyinggung mana-mana pihak dimaafkan. Halalkanlah segala makan dan minum dan maafkan segala kesilapan. Minal Aidil Walfaizin.

Dengan ini,

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri

Maaf Zahir dan Batin.

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this is love.

I LOVE YOU!

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Bliss?

Only when I thought that you were almost gone.

You greeted me with the most lovable hug, the friendliest smile and the most tender touch I could ask for.

I had mixed feelings when my phone lighted up, and I saw your face. Yes, I still have your pic in my phone as a contact picture. What was I feeling? Indescribable.

Yet, I'm not hoping for anything from you. You've made me lose it for countless of times. Somehow, I was never angry. Maybe because I'm numb? I don't know. I still feel that you're hiding something from me. It frightens me though to think that I'm just your spare, your rebound.

Nonetheless, I enjoyed this night very much. Needless to say, I do miss you. It has already been a year. Yes. A year. I'm surprised that I could hold on for this long. Again, I'm not hoping for miracles to happen or sparks to fly. Though it would really be nice.

B, I still can't get over you. This night, was wonderful.

Stop putting me in the dark and shine me some light.

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HAPPY 42nd BIRTHDAY MUM!!!!
I LOVE YOU SO!!!!

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Gastritis

I've been having this gastric pangs for 3 days now and it's killing me. I know it's not diarrhoea because when the pain comes, I don't feel the need to go to Mr Potty. It's juz really really painful. Yet I still eat. Sometimes it hurts sooooo bad I just want to cry. Really....


*tahan je laa...*


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Raya preps are on de way. Kuih-making is finally done. Made kuih tart, kuih makmur, choc chip cookies and biskut gajus.


Now it's left to "revamp" the house.


Now I've got a big big decision to make. The decision I make is gonna affect me one way or the other. I love them both but only one can really be place in my heart....

So my loves, I don't want to hurt either the both of you. I'm sorry...


Help me with the decision pls........

Who should I choose?

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Mr Faisal "Nikon" Muhammad

Or

Mr Syed "PSP" Omar

Note: The names are all made up. So don't think there are such people who really do exist, in my life for that matter.

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Counting down...

It's 7 more days to HARI RAYA!!!!!

That would also mean, I'm gonna be rich in 7 days time. Ooohhh I love being a kid. *grins*

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Messed up.

Today is the most fugging happiest day ever. Why?

I PASS MY SUPP!

*Cheers*

One big burden all lifted off me. *phew*

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It seems that some explicit content seemed to have contaminated the grey matter up there. Yes, explicit for someone my age. So anyway, it started just a mere 20 minutes before breaking of fast.

Me and mum went over to Tamp Int's Begawan Solo to get some kuih for grandma. If I'm not wrong its kuih jongkong *it's some kampung kuih. so don't ask me what it is*. Anyway, was looking at the kuih's and just this one kuih had to grab my attention. What I saw?

Durian Pukis $0.90 each

LOL.

With an S at that. WTF?! I just had to burst myself into laughter and I definitely HAD to tell mum.

Me:
Ma, you wana see something funny?

I tried to remain as cool as possible. But apparently, the employees at Begawan Solo had this clueless expression on to why I was laughing so heartily.

Mum:
What?

Me:
Ma, you read this.

Durian Pukis $0.90 each

LOL.

That just made my day. Gosh. Pukis. For only $0.90! Durian flavour! What more could anyone ask for. Next thing I know, Begawan Solo would come up with Strawberry Pukis, Chocolate Pukis etc. Chocolate IS an aphrodisiac. LOL! Such irony!

Why the fuck am I laughing so hard? Well...

Puki(In Malay) = Vagina

So,

Pukis = Vaginas

Get it? Gee.

I just don't understand WHY the fuck they had to come up with such a name for a kuih. I literally looked at the kuih and try to find the reason, WHY pukis.

PUKIS.

Gee. What more do I need kill my appetite just before breaking my fast. LOL!

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