i am definitely a happy girl

oh yes!!! exams are OVER!!! now its just me and holidays!!!!!! yes yes yes!!! oh how i wish it would never end...huahuahuahuahuahuahuahuahuahuahuahuahua!!!!

oh damn im soo happy. eventhough the world has been crying for 1 n a 1/2 days now...but im still a happy girl.

well....one thing's fer sure

JOAKIM IS FINALLY OUT OF S.I!!!!!!!!!

sory to the Joakim Gomez fan's out there, but seriously, y did it take so long for voters to realise dat he cant sing? i mean...yes he can...i mean if he cant sing, he wldnt be in S.I in da 1st place ryd? but wad i mean is dat.... he sings for fun. he isnt really into the singing-is-my-career-and-people-are-gona-remember-me-for-my-singing kinda person. from the way he sings, all he does is singing for fun. other then hady, john, paul and jasmine, they sing and treat it professionally. oh well.. wadeva it is...my prediction for the grand finals of Singapore Idol would be...

Hady Mirza and Johnathon Leong

yerp..i suppose another guy wld be our next idol. haha.....

im still waiting for response from Starbucks on whether i wld be accepted as a staff there. oh man...im still praying hard *praying ever soo hard...*

oh well...dis Sat em gona go off to BATAM!!! yes yes yes...my first holiday since ages!!!!!!! em gona pamper myself there, massage...and gona do sum stuff wif my hair..haha!!!!! cant wait!!!

*whatever u r doing now, u have made me happier den ever. i won't let anyting come between dis...*

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last paper...!!!

oh my gawd..oh my gawd...the date now i considered 31st August 2006 and it is official...it is da last day of August and also MY LAST PAPER!!!!!!!!!!! damn damn damn..im a happy girl!!! ooo man.....my paper is gona start at 2.30 and end at 4.30...and den.....after 4.30.....

MY OFFICIAL HOLIDAY STARTS!!!!!!!

damn..if i were to die after dat time...i would face a happy death...like seriously.....

anyways...juz now my BPM paper sux.....da farkin paper is 2 hrs....and da farkin paper requires us to draw how many farkin diagrams in 2 hours....soo..

too many diagrams=not enough time

like WTF??! seriously..i hated dat paper....aarrgghh!! but hell larh....its over..!soo i dun gif a shit.

before dat, met wani at tamp at abt 12.30. i was late..lol...*sory wani....* soo..met her and we walk2 ard TM and Century Square......window shopping, looking at stuff dat we gona buy when we haf da money.....daydreaming of the day we would actually start shopping....

soo it was time dat i was deciding whether to haf OATMILK or JAVA CHIP FRAPPUCINO from STARBUCKS. well thanx to wani.......she gave me two perceptions.....

1st one:
"Kalo oat milk..its cheap. its only $2."

soo, i decided to get the oatmilk......but den i was saying to myself again..."starbucks or oatmilk?"...soo thanx to wani *again* she gave me another perception....

2nd one:
"Oatmilk u can get anytime and drink anytime. but starbucks u only drink once in a while...soo lets get starbucks....."

thanx eh WANI! haha...soo i tink God has shine the light on the path to getting a job during the holidays..coincidence, when we were in Starbucks, apparently wani saw a sign outside saying dat they need staff. soo........what else....WE APPLIED FOR IT!!!! woo hoo...my 1st job application....whereas for wani...its her 3rd..soo apparently it isnt a big deal for her but it is for me....haha..! damn i m soo happy!

soo em praying ever soo hard soo dat i could get a job at starbucks...i haf always wanted to work at STARBUCKS! aarrgghh!! damn i lurve dat place...haha

anyways...em gona get ayul for squeezing my right arm....apparently he left a blue black fingerprint on my arm! damn u AYUL! em soo gona pinch ur NIPS when i mit u tmr!

haha....ok....haiz...em a happy girl.....

Note: People, stop tinking dat em 18..coz i m 16...its an insult to tink dat im older!!!

*juz hearing ur voice makes my day....total sweetness.*

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i hear drums

i tink em suffering frm insomnia....not exactly though....

i sleep late, but i actually choose to. LOL! coz....i cant find myself sleeping b4 the clock strucks midnight......soo i always choose to sleep after dat.

anyways.....its a boring tuesday, juz like my boring monday......my nose cant stop running. i feel like shit.. i woke up at 11+ coming to 12. worst....i kept on sneezing and sneezing, spreading the germs all over my hse.

nevermind that...worst..i haf a paper tmr. damn.....nvm. after thurs, em free like a bird...*well...almost* soo...decided to start studying at abt 3+. took my notes and other neccesities out to the living rm, switched on the tv, fan and started highlighting my notes. but sumhow, i didnt manage to concentrate, coz i was lying down on the sofa, and soon i started to doze off. LOL! i haf to learn not to take afternoon naps anymore. damn....i juz want my exams to be OVER! juz 2 more days............*counting the days 'til my OFFICIAL holidays.*

anyhoos, eventhough wif a nose crying out loud for the entire day, and my brain banging onto the walls of my skull, i feel happy & contented for the whole day. seems like im happy being me, and happy wif wad im actually doing.haha....*and its not meant to make my entry a fancy one.*

i havent used my DIOR perfume yet....the thing is juz sitting on my dressing table, and flirting wif me. the packaging is juz soo wonderfully intact to not hurt it.

*its indescribable...but incredibly perfect.....

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my dior perfume

first things first....

http://naqiah-lonely.blogspot.com is REVAMPED!!!!

ok, its a boring monday to start off. miza and ira are done wif their papers and they are like gona start work tomorrow!!!! like wtf?!

me n wani are still struggling to get our papers done. our last paper is on thurs....haiz.....i rather have my exams finish ASAP den given time to revise fer it...i'm a "get-it-over-and-done-ASAP-so-that-i-can-haf-fun" kinda person......lol...

anyways....yest mama came back from jakarta..and she was uberly nice. she asked me if i wanted anyting from the DFS, den i was like thinking.."hrmm..wad can i get???". den i decided to get the DIOR Addict 2 perfume.....and guess wad....



TA DAAAAA!!!!!!






I LURVE U MAMA!!!!!!!!!!



em soo not gona waste any of dis...LOL!! em gona use it wisely soo dun i wont waste a single drop.




ok...i lurve mama! ahaKz.....yay...the perfume i always wanted....

now dats one strike off my wishlist......

i hope there is still more to come..........LOL!

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miza is ATTACHED!!!!

MIZA IS ATTACHED!!!!!

pak pak GEBING GEBING....pak pak GEBING GEBING GEBING...pak pak GEBING GEBING!!!

org lain yg attached...akoo yg excited... biase larh tuh kanz!!! woo hooo!!

CONGRATZ MIZA!!!!

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examFEVER!

ok ok.....now em at home, literally tired of thinking and my brain is retiring for a day or two.....
juz i had my CMSY paper....and i'm loike soo the happy larh kanz!!!! haha......i haf a bit of confident doing that paper. most i can answer....only some jerr akoo asal bole hentam letak answer...LOL! *at least i tried OK!

anyways.....i feel contented larh kanz. a week of whole revision on one blardy paper....it sure kills ur brain...but it sure is worthwhile larh kanz. especially yesterday...... damn i nid sum ting to refresh my brain. my face is suffering from a pimple outBREAK! damn damn damn...*mama, i nid a FACIAL! LOL!

yesterday, me, wani, wawan, sufi, naza, razzi, ira n miza were all down to books, notes, papers, pens, pencils, markings, calculations, calculators, highlighters...!!!! ARGH! most of us haf a paper today..soo yesterday was downright MUGGING! lol......



anyways.....me n wani are soo into dis kewlSHIET! haha...we found our new lurve....

Magnolia Lo-Fat Hi-Cal Oat Milk

it is soo da freakin delicious larrr!!!!!! u shld try it....really really da damn nice. see, im craving fer it oredy..LOL!

damn...i lurve my peeps...em gona start mugging for the last 2 papers....AARRGGGHHH!!! save me from dis nightmare and make time fly two times faster.....

ooohh...and yeah...i wana find a job.....

*toodLes*

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i juz give up.

how hard can it be to please sumone?
eventhough u try ur best to actually take into consideration abt his/her feelings, u can never, never, never please him/her totally.

i tink em juz giving up. no matter how hard i try, sumting has to happen. even if it was a slip of the tongue or simply an inconsiderate or impolite comment, it made a whole difference to the whole thing.

why must there be sensitivity?
if i haf to go on like dis, i dun see any point of ithis thing to go on. we have to learn to make sacrifices, and also spare a thought for each other' s feelings. it isn't one- sided and it never was.

all that i wana do now is juz say sorry. but it seems dat u didnt gave me a response.......

i really duno wad to do.

i juz give up.

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sheeR madness.

its a pretty boring sunday. im tired due to yesterday. it was a family picnic at East Coast. damn, i cant remember when was the last time we had a major family gath. It sure was fun larh, cycling cycling, talking, catching up on each other's happenings, larfed, took pictures, and more laughter....haha...soo fun.

this pic, u duno how many times we actually had to snap to get a perfect picture. thanx to cik jo. LOL!!!! haha..serious arr. cik jo soo farni seyy. bcoz its at night, and when u use a digi cam, u wont be able to see anything on the screen. haha! soo, since cik jo cant see anything, he keeps on snapping pics and trying to get a gud full pic. LOL! and he doesnt even say "1, 2, 3" before pressing down da button to capture da pic. soo most of da time, we aren't ready. we kept on saying to him "kira seblom picit!". well he did count, but..he started counting after pressing down da button to snap da pic. LOL!!! soo we all had our pictures taken, mostly wif cramped faces due to larfing. haha...nvm dat. he took duno how many pics with only ONE CAMERA! haha, and they were 3 other cameras. he is soo into taking pictures wif dat camera, he 4got to take pics wif da other 2 cams. haha...farni larh cik jo. we kept on larfing and larfing sia...!

yesterday was really fun arh. and em shacked like really shacked. its been a while since i cycled. mayb i shld go cycling larh....its fun ya noe.

oh...and im looking for a job. i tink i'm gona work in a MANGO store. same as nurul arr....need to get my resume done soon....i nid help coz dis is my first time working..soo sumbody, HELP ME!

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Over with PRSP Assignment

yay! i'm finally done with PRSP assignment! woo hoooo!! cool larh kanz!!!!! now all projects are OVER!!!!

ahaKz..juz submitted my assignment juz now, and damn, it was such a big relief. i'm satisfied wif wad i've done,and i'm super super happy abt it!

now in da lab, doing my PRSP lab exercise, and fark, i hate ARRAY! i catch no balls abt dis topic and i understand no shit abt it. ARGH! stoopid lab test got array....

i'm going thru a pimple outbreak ryd now!!! stressed, pressured, migraines, no mood in eating, tired, shacked, drained of energy....

i tink i need to for a facial treatment anytime sooner now. hrmm, mayb i shld bring my mom along for a day of "mother daughter" pampering session......damn...dat will be nice.

wow, dis is da last wk of my Sem 1 as a yr 1 student in TP. cool larh kanz! ahaKz.....

-I have a PRSP lab test on Saturday
-Nxt wk is study wk
-I have a SYSA revision lecture on Monday
-I have a CMSY revision session with my tutor on Monday

haiz, i have to start mugging like NOW! my exam starts nxt FRIDAY!!!!!!!!

damn.....i tink em gona die from a pimple outbreak.....

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A new breath of fresh air

It's been sometime that we've last seen each other
And when I saw you,
It was like a new breath of fresh air

You held me in your arms,
And whispered "I love you"
To my ears.

It was undescribable
That I just smiled
And gave you a kiss showing that I care.

My love for you grows each and every day
You love for me, I know, is always there

I love you more than ever before
The flame will never go off with a simple blow

We gave each other a chance to embrace one another tight
And now it's hard to let go even with all our might

Thank you Baby
For embracing me in you arms

Thank you Baby,
For being my one and only....

*I Love You even more....*

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i smiLe.

I can't bear to think about it...
I'm moving on....

I've found what I've longed for.
Maybe I made a mistake before
But I'm not gona lose you again

You made me smile with the sweetest words,
You made me laugh with a simple joke.

You made me realise that all I ever needed was u,
And also realised that I was the one for u.

I won't make the same mistake again,
And I'm sorry for what happened that day.
Let's move on together,
And keep the memories as it is.

We've been through some hurdles,
And I'm sure there are more to come.

Please don't let me go,
Coz I know I can't go through this alone.

It's true,
that whenever I think of you,
I smile.

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Happy Birthday!!

Happy 43rd Birthday PAPA!!!!!!!!!

may u be blessed with good health, and may ur live be full of the many wonderful things that life has to offer......Lerp ya PAPA! ya da best PAPA a daughter can have.....!

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I'm starting to feel that i'm missing him alot....i've been tinking abt everything dat happen.

it all happened soo fast. i duno wad to say, duno wad to tink........its juz dat the incident happen too fast dat i cant get over it.....

seeing one cry over a relationship which did not worked out is very heart wrenching. wad more when the relationship lasted for quite a period....

when i see that happening in front of my eyes, i cant stop thinking abt wad i juz faced for the past week or so. it was hard seeing everything that u hoped for, came crashing down as though it was like the end of the world or sumting.....i felt terrible, heartbroken and lost.

sumone said to me dat if u want sumting, achieve it until u manage to get it. i've been tinking abt it and i'm in a dilemma. sum part of me tells me to try to reach out to him, whereas another part, juz kept on telling that i shud juz give up......

if this carries on, i really am at my wits end. wld he give me another chance? or wld he juz ignore and erase me frm his life? i dun wana seem desperate but everything was juz left hanging, a love story, wif no happily ever after.......................................

damn, all dis is making my brain feel cramped......

**170706 will remain being a vague memory...always....**

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2 days in 1 entry

seems like i didnt haf the time to update for the past 2 days...ahaKz...soo i'll put 2 entries into one ok?

8th August 2006

it's my parents 18th wedding anniversary, and they called all my relatives down to have a celebration dinner at Kampong Chai Chee near Geylang area there. and my oh my..there were alot of yummy delicious food!! Woo hoo!!! thanx mama & papa..... haiz...they are happily married for 18 yrs...yay!



the anniversary cake dat i got for them....



Happy 18th Anniversary Mum & Dad!!!

9th August 2006

soo its national day, and nenek went johor for some durian eating. whereas, me, adek, papa n mama went shopping!!! wweeee!!!!

i got a splendid Guess bag which i prefer not to disclose the price, same goes for mama, a Guess bag but a different design. i bought a pair of heels for going ard places rather then wearing my flip flops and flats wherever i go, mama bought a simple ring, papa bought a shirt and a pair of timberland shoes. adek bought sum tops from duno what the shop name is. ahaKz....

soo dats da family day of shopping. den den den, after shopping, we went to catch the FIREWORKS!!!!! again!!!!!! but dis time i didnt take pics, i took vids. haha....
and i tell u, we watched the fireworks frm lavender, and hell, the place was super crowded wif people!!!!!!!!!



the National Flag flying up high in the skies....~~~~



yay..!!!!!

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Happy Birthday Singapore

HaPpY 41st BiRtHdAy SiNgaPorE

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FIREWORKS are AWESOME!!!

today is of korse..alot of Singaporeans shld noe....dat it is da NDP preview..and of korse.....da highlight of all NDPs throughout the years...is of course....

FIREWORKS!!!!!!

woo hoooo!!!...yea...i went to watch it wif mah family...its like oh-so-nice larr!!!! haiz.....i lurve fireworks!!!!! there is like soo very da many pple at Marina South.......



and of korse...like every other year.......it will be super jam larr on da roads...i didnt manage to get a gud pic of the traffic jam, but seriously....its totally jam packed wif cars, vans, buses, motors and wadeva gadgets with wheels u can find on da roads lorr!!!

and of course......highlight of da day....FIREWORKS!!!!!



*how i wish dat it wldnt haf happen.......*

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It's OVER!

OVER OVER OVER! DONE!

I'm back to being single. I accepted the break up. Im fucked up wif everything. I had hopes which I thought would last forever. Guess I was wrong again....for the umpteenth time. haiz......nothing seems right nowadays.........................he's gone, out of my life. em not gona feel miserable about this shyd coz i noe it isnt worthwhile. argh! damn im missing myself.....I need to feel the old me. the cheerful, bezerk, wacky me again.......i need to find myself.

ok....lets put all that stoopid miserable things aside...

I AM FINALLY DONE WITH MY PROJECT!!!!!!
3 CHEERS FOR ME!!!!!
Hip hip...hooray!
hip hip...hooray!
hip hip...hooray!

yay...em soo soo soo happy.....my projects are finally done. my brain cells are retiring for a moment....den its mugging time for the semestral exams, which is in about 3-4 wks time........ for now i need to relax myself, go sum place peaceful and enjoy the wonders of living on earth. i thought of watching the fireworks with a bunch of frens...but i'll consider dat, and dat is if everything cools down. but i noe it wont happen so soon..

nxt wk, its time for me to get working on my java assignment. damn i lurve dat shyd, but its super troublesome.

A few things about java programming that I hate:
-It is case sensitive
-It is very sensitive to spelling errors
- A single ";" can make a difference
-A single spacing can make the whole program look ugly

haha....yes yes yes, its soo da farking troublesome larr..!!!!!

after nxt wk, i need to start mugging, mugging, mugging. my life is indeed getting boring... sumone...COLOR my life!

oh, and i wonder why sum hamba-hamba Allah nik, like to be judgemental of pple. wad more when they dont know that person. its really very freakin irritatin ya noe. especially when that sumone doesnt leave a clue about their identity, i mean it sucks lar. but i mean, they have their own opinions. even so, that doesnt mean that they can juz go ard, spreading their opinions or worst, making up stories about sumone juz to fulfill ur desire of seeing dat person being a reject in society. man dat sux.........

em a single again........after only about 3 wks......ARGH!

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I dun wana lose him

I still don't understand why this has to happen
Could it be that you are lying?
But I wouldn't wana question your integrity,
Coz I trust you and I always do.

But sumhow deep down, I know sumting wasn't right
But you didn't tell and decide to keep it out of sight.
Why don't you just tell me the truth
And it will stop me from drowning within the shadows of the truth

I really really love you, and I can't get over you
You made a difference in my life, even if it was only for a moment.
I shed tears like there is no tomorrow
When you decided that it wouldn't go on for another day

No matter what, I will still wait for any reply from you.
I just want you to know that no matter what happens,
I will still be waiting for you.
Will you eventually save me from the curtains of what you call the truth?

I love you, and I still do. Please give me a certainty that you still feel the same way too.

170706

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i lurve him soo much to let him go

is it really oveR??? i dun want dis to be over.....never.........y doesnt he wana carry on? is it wrong if i m right by his side, holding his hand, helping him along.............

its really heartbreaking to lose him, what more so sudden. must it stop here? haiz...i dun want it to end.....i lurve him soo much.........

Baby,
u made me happy as ever,
u gave me da love dat i longed for
u gave me da encouragement dat loving sumone wont hurt if i gave them a chance

u made me a patient and strong person
u made me realise dat relationships are two-way
u gave me hope dat i noe could last forever

i dun wana lose u darling....not now, not ever. please come back to me...........

I love u soo much and always will.......

170706 - A love story unfolded, and always will carry on........

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Tears aren't worth shedding if they are all meant for pityness.
Sadness isnt't worth feeling when noone cares about it.
I don't care what anyone thinks coz I know best what I want.
Let me shed, let me cry,
Say whatever you want.
I'll be deaf about it.

If losing a child is really what you want,
I'll run away on my own accord.
You lost one, and you wana lose another one.
It's MY FAULT! dun u tink i noe dat?
I duno y i did it. I dun care if u beat me to death.
You really want me dead.

I know i m a burden. That's why i never tell.
Eventhough I did this, I have never talked back to you.
What more yell.
And now you say i m doing dis juz bcoz i want ur pity.
Take your money, take everything.
I don't care. Juz let me die.

Fark everything.
I hate myself!

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